class had started and the professor came in, wooyoung sat at the back of the class and san a few rows in front of him, the professor took the attendance, and as usual, wooyoung just raised his hands not speaking.
the death of yujin and the abuse by her parents had caused a lot of mental issues and difficulties for wooyoung, one of them was being afraid of talking back. he would always try his best to avoid saying anything that could be expressed through other means.
this was caused by the abuse he went through when he did something wrong or said something wrong.
anytime he'd talk more than needed or felt like he did something wrong, he'd go through prolonged periods of panic attacks.
while woo was lost in his thought the bell had rung and everyone had started standing up and getting their things.
san got up and went over to wooyoung, helping him carry his books.
"so, do you wanna go to my dorm to study? you seemed to space out a little during the class so i focused a lot more so i could explain it to you after class!" san told wooyoung.
wooyoung nodded. on their way there they saw yeosang, mingi, and seonghwa, seonghwa was waving at them.
san waved back enthusiastically as he walked a couple of steps ahead of wooyoung before greeting them halfway.
"where are you guys heading?" seonghwa asked seeing that they were heading in opposite directions.
"we're going to you and woos dorms to study," san explained putting a hand across wooyoungs shoulder.
"oh, we're heading to the library to do the same thing, why don't we all go there together?" seonghwa suggested
san looked at him for a second before going, "you seriously think me and mingi in a room would be able to study?"
seonghwa looked at mingi and then back at san, "yeah... you don't need to come, come one wooyoung." seonghwa said locking elbows with wooyoung, who was still facing the opposite direction.
san stared at them for a bit before reality hit him, "yah!" he yelled running after them.
after they had gotten to the door, seonghwa told them to be quiet to not disturb the people inside and headed towards the table at the far corner so that if they did get a little loud, they still won't disturb anyone.
san sat down first before patting the seat beside him, which was at the end so he didn't have to sit directly beside anyone other than san, for wooyoung.
seonghwa was a year older than the others so he was studying something else, while yeosang and mingi sat and reviewed their lesson, and san explained today's lesson to
wooyoung.
after a while, wooyoung understood the lesson and was gonna read sans notes for a bit. seonghwa got up and asked everyone if they wanted any drinks,
"just a soda for me." yeosang said
"same here." mingi added, going back to studying with yeosang
"an iced spanish latte for me," san said, seonghwa looked at wooyoung and asked him if he wanted anything as well, wooyoung was about to shake his head but san answered in his behalf.
"he'll have an iced americano,"
seonghwa nodded and headed toward the nearby café to buy the drinks.
wooyoung went back to reading sans notes, focusing on every word.
san sat there admiring wooyoung, not so secretly, as his hands cupped his cheeks, holding his head up.
wooyoung was beautiful in every way in sans eyes, from his foxy eyes to the pretty moles under his eye and on his lips.
his lips. oh how much he loved staring at them, he would often find himself thinking, "what would they taste like?"
"san?" wooyoung called for the 4th time after finally getting san to focus again.
"yeah? sorry," san said as he looked over at the place wooyoung was pointing at,
while san was explaining the point wooyoung didn't understand, seonghwa showed up with a bag containing their drinks.
"alright! 2 colas for yeosang and mingi," seonghwa stated as he gave them their beverages
"1 iced spanish latte for mr. choi" san laughed at the formality and took his coffee.
"and lastly 2 iced americanos for me and wooyoung," seonghwa said as he sat down and slid wooyoung drink towards him.
wooyoung was still very uncomfortable being around them, being in public, and being the center of attention.
wooyoung quickly took his coffee and went back to san to try and concentrate more since he was feeling extremely anxious.
while san was explaining he noticed droplets of sweat forming on wooyoungs forehead, "you okay?" he asked, whispering so he doesn't draw attention to wooyoung.
wooyoung nodded and excused himself for a bit to go to the bathroom.
san worryingly looked at wooyoung as he quickly walked to the bathroom while he crossed his arms.
"so? what's going on between you and him?" yeosang asked nonchalantly
"us? no, no! we're just friends" san reassured, mostly trying to convince himself that all he felt for wooyoung was merely the love a friend
the others at the table gave questioning looks at san, clearly not buying it. "you guys seem close, plus didn't he ignore you?" seonghwa added
"i mean we are...bu-but not like that! and we started talking a week ago,"
"well you should check up on your not boyfriend he's been in the bathroom for some time now," mingi concluded
san realized it and made his way to the bathroom trying not to seem worried about wooyoung to not alarm anyone, "he's not my boyfriend!" san yelled back one last time before he went into the bathroom where he heard a faint sound of mingi say "sure!"
after san got to the men's room, he opened the door and noticed that all the other doors were vacant except for the one on the far end which he assumed was wooyoung.
he knocked on the door gently to not startle wooyoung, "woo?"
no response
"woo? are you in there?" san said as he backed away from the door and saw wooyoungs shoes, he went closer to the door. "wooyoung, are you okay in there?"
again. no response.
san had known wooyoung for 2 years, and as a result, he knew things that most people didn't know.
one day while san was cautiously opening the door to wooyoungs dorm room to get his jacket that he left earlier, he saw wooyoung curled up in a ball in one of the corners of the room while he repeatedly closed his ears and opened them.
wooyoung didn't seem like he noticed san, and san wasn't going to intervene. sometimes when people are experimenting panic attack, or any sort of attack, it's better to leave them alone. that was something. san had a hard time doing though
san waited by the door for a while until he peaked inside again and saw that wooyoung had calmed down
san picked himself up and went back to his dorm room, after that day san really paid attention to how wooyoung was feeling, making sure he wasn't feeling uncomfortable.
a/n: i don't know how to explain the last part tbh just wooyoung had a panic attack and yeah that's it idk why i made it so long for literslly no reason :D
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