Skinny Girls// a short story

The end

Dear Patrick,

I'm really sorry I couldn't stay. I don't really have the words to talk about why i did. Or what i hope i did. I know it's twisted, to kill yourself. But you tried once. You know how bad it gets. So please, don't be mad at me.

If you need someone to blame.

Blame the world.

Hey, I wasn't strong enough to stick around, but i hope you are. Please stay. There's a reason i need you to stay until it's your rightful time to come home too. Well actully, if hell is there, you'll go there and Ellena and I will be in hell. We sinned and killed ourselves. Besides, we didn't even really belive anyways. I know i only knew you for a short while, but you made me happy for a little bit. Thank you.

But here's something I want you to do for me, until you die.

Spread messages that life hurts and it's hard. Help put a stop to stuff bullying and eating disorders. I know you want to help people in life. Your good at helping. You may not always be able to save yourself, but you helped me rethink it, at least for a bit. Don't get mad at yourself though. It was my choice to die. I wanted it. I'm sorry Patrick.....I knew you only for a little bit, but i don't care.

Patrick, do me a favor and live your life to the fucking fullest. Please fall in love with a girl who will treat you right. You deserve her more than anything. And even if she falls down and get's hurt, help her up and be there for her, like you were for me. Don't give up on love, life, family, whatever. Please try and see the good in the world. The stuff that Ellena and I couldn't.

Anytime you feel like giving up, look back to this letter I wrote to you.

Your amazing and strong and I love you. I'm not just saying that. I love you, it's true. But I guess the world hated me and wanted me to die. So thats what i did. But that doesn't mean you have to. This would have happened had Elllena died or not. It just pushed me over the edge sooner then I thought it might. I know this is probaly bull shit to you. But do the shit we will never get to do. Graduate from high school, fall in love, get married, have kids and watch them grow and be you.

I'm not really sure what else to put here....it's actually kinda hard.

Just try. For me and Ellena. She would want it to. I'm sure of that.

Love you Patrick, go far and do amazing things.

If you get stuck, it's okay. We all do sometimes. But don't loose yourself too much in the dark. Always try and turn on the light before it burns out.

Don't worry about me. Just live.

- Macie