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Zwakhe
I was fuming with anger as I got out of that centre. I needed to get myself together before I say or do something stupid. I stood there for a few minutes just breathing as i received a text from Amani saying they ready. I walked back to her room and found them looking better.
Me: You ready?
Amani: Ill have to leave you two. She hugged Alutha and kissed my cheek and left us.
Alutha: You two close?
Me: best sister ever
She nodded and As the nurse rolled in with the wheel chair and paper bag of meds.
Nurse: our number is in there. If you have any issues please let us know. I nodded and she sat down as i gave her a push to the car and she was silent. I got in and drove
Alutha: Where we going?
Me: home
She kept quiet as I navigated the road to the airport than took a helicopter ride to kwantabazinhle than got there got into the car and drove not home but to the little cabin house in the words. She was quiet the whole ride and i let her be because i was still calming myself from all that iv heard from her conversation with Amani.

Alutha
I know he heard my conversation with Amani but am not sure how much he has heard. I looked out of the window as we got to the beautiful place. It was a cabin with beautiful trees and flowers and fruits. He parked right at the door and than walked around to the boot took out my bag and opened the door for me walking to the lounge where a nice fire place was lit. He opened the warmer and smiled.
Zwakhe: Amani made late lunch for us. He opened up the warmer and a sticky note.
" made with love"
He took out macaroni and cheese and salad. He opened the fridge and it was fully packed. He took out his phone.

Zweli
My phone rang in the car since we were driving to a gala that we were going too.
Zwakhe: Thank you for filling up the house with food
Me: You good?
Zwakhe: Yeah
Me: you sure
Zwakhe: Enjoy the Gala bro
Me: I love you
Zwakhe: am i love me too
I laughed
Zwakhe: Sisi
Amani: yes?
Zwakhe: Thank you
Amani: its a pleasure
Zwakhe: will talk tomorrow
Me: take it easy
He hung up and Amani looked at me.
Amani: Do you think his going to be okay?
Me: He has to be
We drove while listening to music

Alutha
He finished dishing up for me and sat across from me and ate while i took a sip if wine he fetched somewhere in the cabin.
Zwakhe: you okay?
I looked at him.
Me: what did you hear from my conversation with Amani?

Zwakhe
Me: everything
She looked at me slowly pushing her food away and I took a sip of wine and looked at her.
Alutha: what now?
Me: I don't know
She looked away and I looked at my food and pushed it aside.
Me: What do you want?
She looked at me for a second and looked away but i saw the tear rolling down.
Alutha: I don't know
Me: what do you mean you don't know?
She wiped a tear
Alutha: If I stay here with you his going to kill everyone until he gets to me and I cannot have him take away the only friends I have.

Alutha
I watched him get up and place the food in the warmer and drown the wine than looked at me. He was pissed but trying so hard to stay calm.
Zwakhe: I need you to listen to me and listen to me with both your ears cause am not going to repeat myself. Am not scared of Sabelo. I was never scared of him. Now I need you to choose or decide what you want because I cannot and I will not be someone second best. Its either you with me and we got each other back or I help you now get back with him so he can use you and mistreat....
" stoopooooop!!!!"
He stopped and looked at me. I didn't mean to scream but hearing him talk like that.
I took a deep breath.
Me: I know this is hard. And I get you have worries and I understand that but you need to also understand that I don't know what happening with us!
He looked at me as if am crazy and walked around the table and lightly took my head in his face and kissed me. I closed my eyes and let go into the clouds and loved every bit of his lips on my lips. He then moved his head away and looked right into my eyes.
Zwakhe: Am sorry
Me: Am sorry for screaming at you
Zwakhe: But i need to know. Are you with me or am just fooling myself here.
Me: Why me?
Zwakhe: Why not you?
Me: I have scares all over my body.
I have have a shattered womb that wont carry a baby to full term.
I do not know how to love or how to receive love. Am broken, shattered and beyond fixing.
Zwakhe: Your body tells a story of the journey you have travelled and as hard as it was you overcame it. I want you because you are the strongest woman iv ever meet. I want you because you all that i think about. I want you because with you its feels like anything and everything is possible. I want you because of the determination of wanting to live that you have showed the last few months is remarkable and lastly I want you because you make me feel things that I never knew that I can feel!
I looked at him with tears rolling down my cheeks and he wiped them away.
Zwakhe: I cannot make you see yourself through my eyes but I can make you see how beautiful you are to me.
Than a tiny grin showed on his face and he looked mischievous
Me: You smiling?
I whispered to him and he looked at me.
Zwakhe: I always prayed for a gifted woman in the chest area
I looked at my big but moderate boobs and looked at him.
Me: Why?
Zwakhe: So i can burry myself in them.
I wiped my face and looked at him.
Me: How?
He moved back and unzip my jacket and lifted my top slowly. Even though he has seen me naked a million times when he was helping me bath but I was nervous as he put his head through my top and rubbed his whole head in my boobs making me laugh.
Zwakhe: The past 3 months i have been wanting to do that, didn't know it will be thins good.
He looked at me smiling.
Zwakhe: that what I want. To see you care free. I know our thing is on shaky grounds but iv got you.
I looked at him. I really want to believe him but head keeps on saying "no its a trap"
He moved from me poured more wine and looked at me.
Zwakhe: Are we trying this new chapter in life? Or am sending you back?
I looked at him and he was serious....