a devil is born & remade

chapter 6: a choice

I sat in my room with dads sword leaning against the wall, I was staring at it and I was tired, I don't know how long its been, I didn't care, I was trying so hard to think of something, anything except what happened, it won't stop hurting, 'why didn't I just fucking move?' I think, 'MUNDUS' POWER HAS AN ABILITY TO PARALYZE HIS FOES, IT WAS NOT YOUR FAULT SPARDA.' wulf says, 'but if I were stronger maybe as strong as dad or Nero, it wouldn't have paralyzed me, it just means I'm too weak.' I think, 'YOU ARE NOT WEAK, THAT IS THE ONE THING I KNOW IS TRUE, AND YOUR DEVIL FORM PROVED IT.' wulf said, 'don't talk about that, I don't wanna remember that damn form.' I think, 'IM SORRY SPARDA, BUT YOU ARE STRONG, O CANT LET YOU THINK YOU AREN'T.' he said, 'thanks wulf, I think I should see how moms doing.' I think, 'GOOD IDEA.' he said,

I stand up and leave my room, I look over the railing and see mom sitting at dads desk, she looks sad, but I can't tell how sad, I walk downstairs and she turns to see me, moms eyes go wide and she stands up to rush over and hugs me, "thank god, you had me so worried Sparda." Mom says, "huh, what do you mean?" I ask, "what, sweety how long do you think you were in your room?" She asks, "thirty minutes, and hour at most." I say, "oh honey." Mom says, she hugs me and I'm really confused, "wha, mom how long was I up there?" I ask, "a week sparda, you shut yourself in for a week." She says, "...oh shit." I say, she leads me to the couch and I sit down dumbfounded, "my god, wait, what about the others, did Nero leave Redgrave alone?" I ask, "no sweety, no one has left, Nero wants to stay behind to look after Vergil." Mom says, "shit...if I didn't lose it they'd both be hunting down the cult and getting dad back." I say, I hold my hands over my eyes and I feel mom hug me as I feel myself started to cry,

We hear a knock at the door before it opens, behind the door are Nero, kyrie, and Vergil, Vergil is in a wheelchair being pushed by kyrie, I look away from Vergil and I feel tears fill my eyes, "there you are bud, had us all worried." Nero said, I still can't look at everyone, "its been a week stop feeling bad for us." Vergil said, I look at Vergil surprised, "did Dante never tell you about all of our fights, I'm no stranger to seeing my own blood." He says, "but, but this is different, you and dad were fighting because your past, your my family, I would never think about hurting you, and look at you, I fucking crippled you Vergil, dont you hate me for that?" I ask, "honestly kid, I don't think I could ever hate you." He says, "He's not wrong no one in this family could hate you, if anything hes probably pissed at himself for losing that fight." Nero says, "you boys are too much." Kyrie says, I have no words, after everything I did their not even mad at me, I don't deserve them, but I will fight for them,

"I have something important to tell you all." I say, I gather everyone at the couch and stand in front of them, "I'm going to find the cult." I say, "I knew it was coming." Nero says, "we all did." Mom says, I wait for their reactions but mom gets up and hugs me, "be careful sweety, and don't forget to call us." She says, I'm surprised, they are actually this okay with me leaving, "your not gonna try to stop me?" I asked, "hello no, I'm not getting my ass kicked again." Nero says, "we knew you were going to go after them, and we've been gathering what you'll need for the trip." Kyrie says, "wow, thank you everyone, really." I say, everyone except Vergil gets up and hugs me, I can feel myself start to cry, I really love my family,

(Time skip)

I spent the rest of the day getting the van ready and looking around dads armory but the only thing I could find that I could use was his old shotgun,

I lay in bed think about how my journey would go, or rather how long I'd be gone from home, would my baby sibling be bored before I come back, or will Leo forget me, I look at my phone and decide for myself to tell Leo, I send a message telling him I will leave tomorrow and I'm not sure when I'll be back in Redgrave, and I want him to know if he finds someone else, then I won't blame him, I want him to know I won't mind if he doesn't wait, I set my phone down with a heavy feeling in my stomach, I turn over and sleep,