History Together | Ronance

#12 Sorry

In some random ass field I sit beside Steve making molotovs. If someone told me just a few weeks ago I was going to be stuffing bottles of alcohol with rags I would have called them insane. What a weird pass time.

"Maybe that was...a friend?" Steve mumbles in reference to earlier.

"Friends kiss eachother with tongue?" I quip and he buffs.

"It doesn't make sense though! The fast times return" he urges and I lose my patience.

"Steve!" I snap "my love life is insignificant in this situation"

"I still have hope" he growls.

"Not everything works out" I reply dryly. Deep down I feel guilty for how I truly feel. I have feelings for his ex and I can't deny it any longer.

Seeing my 'crush' indirectly reject me was a real slap in the face. I didn't care too much because my care was already with someone else. "Plus" I mutter "I don't think I like her anymore"

Steve literally gapes at me "oh really?"

I hit his arm and he fake winces "yes!" I spit.

"She's all you could think about a few days ago" he remarks.

I can't lie to Steve. He's my best friend. "Promise not to be mad?"

He raises and eyebrow and purses his lips "promise" he utters after a few moments. Oh no does he know?

"I like someone else I think my mind got all confused with this shit thats been going on and my old-" he cuts off my rambling.

"I know" he says flatly. What?

"Huh?"

"I've been waiting for you to admit it" he sighs with a playful glint in his eye. "I mean come on Robin I even tried showing you how to flirt with her"

I gasp "you! What?!" My shock turns to humour as I recall bis 'flirting' "you're telling me that those pathetic attempts were supposed to inspire me?"

He folds his arms "hey!"

Getting distracted from our work we both giggle about it "I can't believe you!"

"I can't believe you!" He croaks "falling for my ex girlfriend"

"I'm sorry!" I groan clutching my face.

I frown and he pushes me lightly "joking" He laughs some more before sighing "I just want my best friend to be happy"

"What about Johnathan?" I gasp suddenly remembering.

"Oh cone on, the way she reacted when you brought him up? They aren't going to last" he slaps his thighs for emphasis.

"You can't say that!" I fake scold him "plus I didn't even know you were listening to that conversation"

He winks at me and I roll my eyes. "I'm not as dumb as I look"

~

The plan is swiftly being set in motion and we're on our way to the Creel's house. Nancy and I sit side by side in a comfortable silence. When we finally make it to our first destination and Lucas, Max and Erica all hop out the stolen vehicle i notice Nance tense up. I understand she's worried for them and probably also ourselves given we were about to go back into the realm of horrors.

Tentatively I place a hand on her knee offering whatever comfort I can without being awkward. To my surprise she removes my hand and takes it in her own tightly. I squeeze back and turn my head to hide my grin. This is a platonic gesture right?

The only sound is that of Eddie and Dustin whispering about whatever to eachother, the remaining three of us still quiet. We park in a hidden spot since you know, we stole the van from the trailer park just hours ago. We trudge all the way to Eddie's place and climb through one by one.

"Does he want us to applaud?" I mumble sarcastically as Steve drops from the rope doing a full 180° and landing perfectly on his feet. Nancy smirks and bites her lip to conceal a small snicker. This small gesture makes me feel warm inside like it were a victory. She used to be annoyed by my jokes and now she seemed to enjoy them. Improvement.

~

"Don't try to be heros" Steve instructs our friends. Dustin and Eddie chuckle together.

They were going to be our distraction to buy us some time. "We are not heros" Eddie quips.

Waving them off we turn and walk to out separate destination. My stomach twists and turns and I feel nauseous. The familiar feeling of a soft hand slips into my palm instantly calming me. I turn to face the blue eyed girl and she gives me a wide encouraging smile which I return. From over her shoulder Steve gives me a thumbs up and I try not to roll my eyes out of my head.

Something crosses my mind. If we're going to die should I just confess? I mean it can't really matter if we all end up with our eyes sucked out but what if we live? Then I'll be so embarrassed and never be able to face her again. Maybe I can wait until last minute when I know it can only end one way. But then what if she turns out to somehow reciprocate the feelings and we miss our big moment?! I hate the way my brain works.

Pulling me from my thoughts is Nancy's airy voice "Robin?"

"Yeah?" I croak.

"Are you okay? I mean obviously not I don't know why I asked thats silly but I just mean-"

I smirk at her rambling. I must have made an impression "I'll be okay as long as you keep that gun trained on this asshole" I joke.

"I will as long as you have my back" she smirks back at me.

Maybe this won't end so terribly after all.