random [ sometimes angry] ranting time

random note

I get it, okay? I know, she's everything you've ever wanted and more. Your parents probably love her, and I know most of hers love you too. And you two are so cute together. You smile so much when you're with her. And I'm happy for you, genuinely. I'm proud that you're treating a girl better and that you've matured and realized how some of your friends suck. But how much I wish I could be the one in your arms and the one you talk about how you're happy with. I wish I could be the one you said you loved again. I pushed you so far away that when I finally opened my arms again, you already had her in yours. Your heart moved on and hasn't looked back since. Yeah, we both have regrets, but I have more because I have nothing to move on to. I have no one to really fill that void, not besides my friends. And then most of them are with someone anyways, so I'm just that one person who's almost always the 3rd wheel. But I'd rather stay your friend like I am now than lose you entirely. It's been so nice being friends again. I've been so much happier, especially in band. anytime I see you message me or mention me, my brain just gets excited. But it never matters anyways. I'm the supportive background character that's always there to help, but never needed afterwards . . . .