TW: Depression, self harm thoughts, suicidal actions
Just a forewarning besties, this chapter is emotional as hell so make sure youre in the right mindset and place to read it. just make sure youre doing okay. A little mental health check in never hurt nobody. -lesbihonest
also surprise update. I have so many chapters of this re written so i figured i would spoil you guys. If you give this enough love i might post the next chapter early
When we finally get out bed we part ways and do our usual morning routine. I have to admit this morning im feeling slightly more optimistic for my what my future might hold.
Most days when i finally decide to open my eyes its a fight with myself to get out of bed. Some days i give into those urges and dont leave the bed unless its to use the washroom. I have gained a bit of that weight back but my appetite has greatly diminished. I just dont ever feel hungry.
My demeanor is usually light and happy, hiding what i truly feel and what I truly feel deep down is emptiness. Its going to take a while for me to find what makes me happy again. Before I was taken, I was continuing my studies but I had no purpose. I suppose I was living in blissful ignorance to the corruption around me.
Now the rose coloured glasses have been ripped away and I see the world for what it really is.
I dont know what would make me feel satisfied. Maybe once i proceed with adrienne and her plan I will feel some sort of direction. How long does she want to stay married? How does she plan on taking over? I know she said she needs intel but what can insider information really do?
She wont have enough to dethrone him, thats for sure.
Thinking too long about this makes my head hurt.
I walk down the hall to her office and I knock on the door. When I enter she looks as if im interrupting her
"What is it princess"
her tone is slightly harsh and it catches me off guard. Usually i have a fire burning within me, ready to fight back but today that is lacking and all i feel is hurt. I dont have enough energy to address it so I ignore it just like i seem to be ignoring every other emotion these days.
"Nevermind"
"Close that door now and come back"
The way she orders me around never ceases to amaze me with the power and dominance behind each word.
Sinking into the chair opposite from her she closes her laptop and gives me her full attention.
"Im sorry annalise, im just very- stressed. I know you understand but im sorry for snapping. Is everything okay?"
She offers me an apologetic smile with her eyebrows pushed up and together in sympathy.
"Everything is fine. I wish to further discuss our plans- your. Your plans. I want to know what this is going to look like long term. I want to know how long im going to have to be your wife."
She scoffs and leans back in her chair assessing me.
"What am i really that unbearable? We arent even married yet and you can wait to get away from me?"
"Adrienne thats not what i meant and you know it"
My jaw tightens as she takes my words and twists them into whatever suits her best.
"Whatever. You know you make it seem like I trapped you and im this horrible monster but do you think im thrilled with this? Do you think I want to be married to you?"
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angel of darkness (18+) WLW
FantasíaPrincess annalise is 19 years old and living the life of a sheltered royal child 2nd in line to be heiress. Before she knows it, she is taken and brought into an enlightened world of darkness. She finds out about her families wrong doings. She reali...
