Sunday November 30
Nena's POV
"Pumpkin? I'll be back soon, got a meeting to go to. Love you." Bill says to me as he grabs his coat and heads toward the door. I hop off the couch and run over to give him a hug. I kiss his cheek and wish him goodbye, closing the door behind him. He's only adopted me for a few weeks, but he has been more of a dad to me then my father ever was.
Harry called and talked to him about letting Ben and Jonah come for Christmas, and somehow he worked it out. They are flying, with Chase, on the 18th and they leave the 27th. I am beyond excited to see them. I haven't seen them since the last show in LA, and that was over a month ago. We Skype a lot, but it's just not the same as having them in person.
"Nena?" Harry calls from the living room.
"Yes?"
"Can you get me a glass of water?"
"Of course." I answer and head to the kitchen. Harry has been here for the past three days. He had been ordered a week and a half bed rest, on account for his severely bruised ribs, so that's exactly what he has been doing. He was staying with his mom, but she and Robin went out of town this weekend, so they dropped him off here Thursday evening and they will be back tomorrow.
I fill up a cup with water and hurry back into the living room. Handing Harry the cup of water, I sit down in front of the couch and reach for the remote, scrolling pointlessly through the channels.
"Wanna watch a movie?" I ask, placing the remote by my side and crawling over to the shelf with all the movies.
"Can we watch Harry Potter?" He asks, taking another sip from his water. I nod my head and pull Harry Potter and the Sorcerers Stone from off the shelf and place it in the DVD player. I quickly scoot back over to the couch as the ads start laying.
"I'm going to take my drivers test next week." I tell Harry, playing with his hand that is hanging down on my shoulder.
"It's not hard. And plus, you're a really good driver." There is a pause. "Hey, when you pass your test, you can start taking me on dates." He snickers, which causes me to laugh. I look back into his green eyes. They are so beautiful. He is so beautiful. But there is something about the way his eyes look right now. They look like how Kasey described how Louis's looked right before he took her virginity. Pure passionate love.
But, Harry couldn't be in love with me. I mean, it's me. Who would love a girl who doesn't even love herself?
"What are you thinking about?" His melodious voice pulls me out of my head.
"Nothing." I say all too quickly.
"You can't lie to me. Tell me, please?" He stares straight into my soul it feels like. I simply shake my head. "I know what you're thinking about. You're thinking badly of yourself." I look back, slightly shocked. How did he know? There is a frown resting on his face. "Why?" I stay silent, hesitant to answer.
"I don't know... I just have never really liked anything about myself. It's just what I'm used to. Even if I think something is good about myself, my thoughts come at me with ten reasons why I'm not good. This doesn't even make sense I'm sorry, I-"
"Don't apologize. I'm sad that you don't see yourself the way I see you."
"How do you see me?" I almost whisper.
"When I see you, I see life. I see love, and strength. You're not perfect, and you have a past. But I think that's what makes you so beautiful. Don't be so harsh on yourself, I know it's hard but I'm here to help, and so are the rest of the boys. Even though not all of them know your whole story, they love you. I know it. I'm gonna help you see yourself the way everyone else does, because you are a wonderful soul." He takes my hand and places a kiss on my knuckles. I smile a real genuine smile.
The ads have finished now, so I take the remote and press play. The theme song starts playing and I lean back against the couch. "Come cuddle with me." Harry whispers. I laugh and look back at him.
"I can't. I'm sorry, but there can't be any pressure on your ribs right now." He lets out a 'humph'.
"Well, promise we can go upstairs and cuddle after this?" I look back, thinking he is joking, but his eyes are serious. I nod my head in agreement, butterflies erupting in my stomach.
The movies ends and Harry has fallen fast asleep. He looks so cute, I have to take a picture. I stand up and pull my phone out of my pocket. Opening the camera, I take a quick snapshot of him. I quickly post it to Twitter-
"My little angel @harry_styles"
-before taking his cup and bringing it to the kitchen. My phone buzzes on the countertop where I placed it. I check the screen; text from Lou.
Lou-
Hey, we are a few mins away x
I send back a reply, saying Harry is sleeping, but they can wake him up when they get here. Lou texted me in the middle of the movie, saying Lux really wanted to see her Uncle Harry, so I told them to come on over.
A few minutes later there is a knock on the door. I hurry over and open the door, revealing Lou holding Lux.
"Hello!" Lou says with a smile. She leans in and kisses my cheek, and I motion for her to come over. "Sorry to bug you two, but Lux really wanted to see Harry. Wh-"
"Harry!" Lux shouts and smiles widely. She loves him so much.
"Come on Lux, Harry is sleeping on the couch, let's go wake him up." We tip toe into the living room and right up to the couch. I take out my phone and take a video of Lux jumping on top of Harry and pelting him with kisses.
"Wh- Lux! What are you guys doing here?" Harry rubs his eyes and then gives Lux a big kiss on the cheek.
"She really wanted to see you, so I had to stop by." Lou says, sitting on the lounge chair in the corner. I smile at Harry, and he smiles at me.
"Do you want to watch something on the tv?" I ask Lux and she nods her head gleefully. She picks out Princess Sofia, a show that Ben watches sometimes. I scroll through Twitter, replying to some fellow directioners. One tweet jumps out at me.
"@harrys_servant-
Hi, you are gorgeous. I have a question, would you start doing vlogs? That would be absolutely amazing. @nenafrain"
I smile, thinking of doing vlogs with the boys. That is exactly the kind of thing the fandom wants. It would be like bringing back the video diaries, but live action. I reply saying,
"@harrys_servant just maybe ;)"
And after that, my phone blows up with people begging me to start doing vlogs. I have a feeling I would have to talk to management about it, but who knows. I'll talk to Harry about it later.
"Nena, comes it in front of me, I want to play with your hair." Lou whisper yells, so I scoot over in front of the chair and take my hair out of the bun it was previously in.
By the time Lux has had her fill of Princess Sofia, Lous has done five different types of braids in my hair. I told her to end with a French braid, which she did and it looks fabulous.
"Come on Lux, mummy has to go now." Lou calls, putting her shoes back on. I stand up and stretch my legs. Lux grabs onto Harrys's neck.
"No mummy! Stay with Harry!" She pouts and I try not to laugh.
"Lux, you need to go with your mum now. We can hang out again soon, yeah?" Harry says and she nods her head, they exchange kisses and then Lou gives him a peck on the cheek. I walk with them to the door.
"Thanks for coming." I give her a hug. "Bye Lux, see you soon." She smiles and waves. I close the door and return to the living room. Harry yawns and stretches his arms over his head. "So, I got a tweet from a fan asking if I could start doing vlogs. I wanted to get your opinion."
"Vlogs? What is that?" He raises his eyebrows and I laugh.
"They're like videos of what you do through out your day, kind of like the video diaries, but just all throughout the day. Like when interesting things happen, you record it. I think it would be cool for us to, so then we can look back on it." I say, shrugging.
"Yeah, that would be really nice. So, like you post them on YouTube?" I nod my head. "That would be lots of fun. We would have to go out and buy you a camera."
"And a laptop, for editing videos. I mean, even if we didn't post them, I still think it would be a cool idea, good way to relive memories." He smiles.
"I want to relive energy memory with you." He whispers. I lean in. Oh my god, this is it. My first real kiss. My stomach erupts in butterflies as our lips begin to touch. Then-
*buzz buzz*
You have to be kidding me. I pull away and reach into my pocket and get my phone. It's Kasey. I look at Harry, apologizing before answering the phone.
"Hello?" The background noise has a panic feel to it.
"She answered!" I hear her shout to someone. "Nena, thank god. Have you seen Niall?" Harry is listening in, and he shakes his head.
"No, we haven't seen him, why? What's wrong?" I ask, my heart leaping.
"He's missing. He stayed at Zayn's house last night because he was apparently really depressed about Jen, but Zayn said that when he woke up, Niall was gone. Left his car, phone, wallet, everything." I stand up, exiting the room and going into the kitchen.
"Shit. He has no clue where he could've gone?"
"No, but Nena, were freaking out. You need to get over here asap." I find the keys to the Honda and gab them.
"Okay." I hang up and walk back into the living room.
"What's wrong?" Harry asks.
"Niall is missing, Harry I think he's gonna try to hurt himself, I'm going over to Zayn's house." I say, sliding on my boots.
"You can't even drive, let me go."
"I know, but I have to get over there. You have to stay here, you can barely stand up."
"But-"
"Stay. I'll call you and keep you updated." And without another word, I run out of the door and hop into the car. "Shit Niall. Please don't do anything stupid. Please Jesus keep him safe." My eyes start tearing up as I pull out of the driveway.
I practically jump out of the car when I get to Zayn's flat. I burst though the door and see Kasey, Louis, Liam, Zayn and Perrie all sitting in the kitchen.
"Nena." Kasey runs over and gives me a hug. "Do you have any idea where Niall could be?"
"Let me think about it." I sit down next to Liam and think about all the conversations I've ever had with Niall. "Well, there is one place. He told me his favorite place in London is this little pond right inside the forest by the library." Everyone perks up. "Come on, someone come with me to check there." Zayn stands up and we hurry out of his house, telling everyone to keep thinking and looking other places. I get into the passenger seat of Zayn's car and we back out of the driveway in silence.
"This is all my fault. I should've kept a closer eye on him, he was saying all this crazy stuff last night. I should've know he would do something like this." Zayn turns a corner. The library is getting close.
"It's not your fault Zayn. When people are emotionally unstable, anything can happen. I would know. I've tried to kill myself before." Zayn gasps. "No matter what you do, they will keep on trying. No one really could've stopped him."
"Why didn't I know about you?" He asks, turning left at the stop sign. Just around the corner.
"I'm just now telling all of you this, I still need to tell Liam." We pull into the library parking lot and hustle out of the car.
"We will talk about this later. Do you know where the pond is?" We are running now, into the forest.
"Yeah, he showed me once." I know exactly why he would've gone there. It's the most beautiful spot. A perfect place to die. Surrounded by such beauty. I see the pond in the distance. "It's just up there." I call to Zayn. I slow down to a quick walk as I enter the little clearing.
"Holy shit." Zayn mutters.
"Niall?" I whisper.
(A/N OMG LASEY IK UR IN CLASS BUT. AND I DIDNT PROOF READ THIS BC U WANT IT NOW SO HERE U GO)
