live before i leave

chapter 13

The mood in the car was sweet and comfortable as Beyonce spirit came on the radio. When I got home fear crept in but I decided to go in anyways, I reached for the door and I suddenly fell down. Everything turning and my bone feeling soft, I couldn't talk as my mouth felt heavy. Nabil ran to my side and shouted but of course no one will hear, if thus is how it is in the movies, trust me it isn't that soft and sweet. On cue the door opened and someone carried me, definitely not my dad but the looks from nabil confirmed it. I tried looking up but my eyes were heavy and I closed them.

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I woke up and I saw I was in my room, I looked and I saw drip connected to my hand. I tried sitting up but I was heavy, as stubborn as I am I used force and I stood up. The room was spinning and just when I was about to fall a pair of warm hands caught me, I turned and my face was inches away from his lips given get was taller than me. I looked at his face and his eyes, not Soo attracting like when I was madly in love. He lunged forward maybe to kiss me or something but I turned my head, I was shocked by my action myself.  He helped me to sit on the bed and we kept on looking at each other. "How's your hand?" He suddenly broke the staring competition, he was not comfortable because before it would have been eye raping each other but now I was looking at him curiously

"Fine, still breathing"

"So uhm since we don't have enough time we can..."

"It's over!" I said finally and he looked at me" you and I, if there's anything I did to give you lead Sadiq am sorry but it's over " his face became emotionless as his hands looked like he needed to blow someone

"Was it because of the prisoner?" He asked and I looked at him, so raw and no sign of human sympathy

"You know he has a name." I shot back looking at him

"So it's because of him, you don't love me anymore?"

"Why must it be him?" Was it obvious that I liked him

"You changed when you started seeing him, isn't that enough reason?" He said a little high

"Or maybe what you did to me was cruel and I realized I don't need you in my life anymore"

"Like you have a life" I didn't imagine he loved me before"you should be happy someone outside wants to stay with you"

"Am not forcing anyone into a relationship" my mom came in with a tray and looked at both of us. Sadiq flashed her a smile and she looked at me" Sadiq please can you get me shawarma I think k that will do" I said and he smiled standing up and left as mom came to my side and injected something in my drip, it was an awkward silence.

"I don't know what to say to you" I looked at my .on and she looked worried "am going to be loosing two children and I know Almighty Allah knows best. "

"Yes he does" I replied like I wasn't in the discussion

"So any improvement from Albert?" She asked looking at me

"Not yet but he says he'll help me" I replied and the kiss came in my mind. I looked at my on and saw her looking at me, I looked elsewhere and she smiled .

"So maybe he'll be free and you both can meet if things go this way" I smiled but my smile faded. If Albert comes out that will be good right, I did something right but will he miss me .

"Kissing you is a sign he is interested in you" mom said and I looked at her blushing suddenly" you are a beautiful woman and the self control hasn't been easy my dear."

"Am lost" I replied faking confusion

" Don't use your predicament to jeopardize things, you should act as your heart says"