THE BLOSSOMING CAMELLIA FLOWER (カメリア)

Chapter 19

<Alex P.O.V>

(Alex) when I arrived in the Philippines, I got into a fight with my uncle, I knew why he wanted to me go here more because he was anxious that I would do something stupid again like I did when I decided to leave for japan, our argument lead into a fist fight, but in the end...lola stepped in to stop us, she favored me in the end which enrage my uncle even more, he stormed out in the end, her wife my aunt was against his decision also so she chose to side with me, she pitied me because she knew I was already enjoying a good life back in japan.

Since it was already too late for me to go back to japan, I just preceded to continue senior high here, thankfully I passed the admissions in UST, back in japan I befriended some fellow Filipino student like me who also went to UST, they we're on vacation at the time when I would occasionally work at a bar at night.

Their names we're Breanna and shaine, there we're the same age as me...we shared the same love for music so we would occasionally play instruments in the music room of the university.

*shaine* i think the schools in japan we're a lot better than here

*Alex* I would say

*Breanna* sucks that we can't go there too

*Alex* let me guess.

*Three of them* family problems

*shaine* ha same thing

*Alex* yeah

*Breanna* wanna grab something to eat later?

*Alex* sure

(Alex) my last years in senior high was a bit hard since I was adjusting back again after living in japan for three years, I rented a small condo near the university so I could live in, i had no one to share the condo with so I was mostly alone in my room, It was still hard trying to get used to this again, I was so used to having cami around our old apartment, sometimes though I kind off miss her so bad, we've been together for most of our senior high school years, it was hard to not have her around anymore, at night before I could sleep, I would wonder how she was doing back in japan...is she eating properly? Can she cook for herself? Is she studying well? How's her leg doing?

For most of the time, I was always the one who was taking care of her and looking after her a lot, I was worried when I left If she could survive on her own once again, can she be responsible enough to be independent for herself? Just thinking about her and getting reminded of everything we have gone through in the past few years would make me cry or tear up, I was such a cruel person to leave her so vulnerable like this... I wanted to help her more, take care of her more...love her more but it's hard now since I'm away from her.

Sometimes I would regret leaving her when I am reminded of when I left that day, hating myself was starting to become normal for me and I hated myself so bad for making her cry again.

When I started skyping her at night, it made me feel a bit better sometimes, although I could only see her through the screen but it was enough just to see her happy and smiling when I'm around, sometimes I would help her in studying when we are in call, our conversations would last for hours and hours, just seeing her happy was enough for me.

After graduating I got into law school in the university, I would be busy at all times in studying all the lessons, laws, writings and other legal documents that I needed to study made me limited with my time, I would stay up all night studying, there was one time I went two weeks without sleep because exams we're coming soon, because I was always studying I couldn't call her always anymore but I know she is busy with her school also.

-MID 2015-

Two years later I'm halfway into law school, I still got high grades, my academics we're in good shape, my physical state was still functional most of the times, so I was doing well.

After halfway into the semester, it got less intense so I got free time sometimes, during my free time I would be singing with Breanna, shaine, and now lance who joined us sing in at clubs or stages, our songs we're mostly opm and classical songs in America, after our performances we would get a decent paycheck which we split with each other.

Even though I may sound like I was having a wonderful life now but, my life back in japan was better...my life with cami was a lot better than this, when I was still with her, everything seemed calm and more easy, no worries just class, I can meet new people there...but in here

There's problems left and right, I can't interact with other people, I'm always pressured in my academics, I am mostly a loner at school and I live alone, sometimes I wished that I didn't leave in the first place, even if grandma and my family would have found out that I was in a relationship, they wouldn't even care at all, at least If I did well with my academics, it was fine but my greedy uncle thought otherwise, he thought I was being irresponsible in japan, he thought I would use the inheritance my grandfather gave me would all go to waste because I'm irresponsible, but in reality he just wanted to use me because grandfather gave me his inheritance.

Before I left for japan, my grandfather was sick at the time, I would visit him after school, my father died when I was just two years old, and my mom was always abroad just to pay for my school, my grandfather stood as my father and took care of me most of the times, sometimes he would hit me if I do something at me or yell if I do say something wrong, but I know for a fact that he loved me...

At his deathbed I was with him, he told me that he will give me his inheritance when I turn 25, he only told me and my grandmother about it because he knew that my relatives would chased after his inheritance so he suggested that I must go somewhere else to avoid it, the truth was my uncle did little to get me to japan, it was my mom and my other aunt who really got me to move to japan.

In the Philippines, it was normal for family members to fight over inheritance, land or anything just for their own gain, my relatives we're well off people so I knew they would be greedy when grandpa died, which is why I wanted to become a lawyer so I can bring justice to those who are also experience what I also gone through too, I want to make the world a bit better for others even if mine can't be better.

After graduation...I wanted to go back to japan, I want to see my old friends, my old teammates in boxing, my teachers, the kind people who worked with a long time ago and most importantly...my cami.

I know one day I'll find someone else, someday also she'll find someone else...one day the both of us will move on from each other, one day we'll grow old with our own families but until that happens.

"I must keep my promise even if it's hard to do"

One night, lance picked me up from the school and drove me back to my condo, lance has been like my secretary since I left japan, he's one year younger than me but he's good to have around, he decided to move into the condo a few weeks ago, I was so tired from doing a group project that we finished almost midnight, thankfully lance was still up to pick me up, I did help myself but sleep for a bit in his car, until he suddenly hit the brakes and someone hit themselves into the car door, I didn't mind it because I was too sleepy, and because of that I overslept in his car for a couple of minutes, when he got back I awoke and realizes I feel asleep.

*Alex* what happened?

*lance* oh just a bunch of people running and one of them slammed their face into our car.

*Alex* damn! What took you so long?

*lance* I was talking with one of them, just making sure there we're alright.

*Alex* okay then

(Alex) I looked out the window to see where we were...outside of a hotel I saw a girl standing infront of the door, I was too sleepy to see her face properly but.

"why does she look familiar? Am I seeing things or does she awfully look like cami?

Maybe I was seeing things or it's just my imagination but I shrug it off and went back to sleep until we got back into the condo

-the end-