Eddie Munson Imagines

💔 𝒢𝓇𝒾𝑒𝒻 (sequel to loosing you) 😢

** Warning: mentions of drug abuse & depression **

* I woke up in my feelings and depressed for some reason, idk why but yea...if your easily triggered or cry easily don't read this and no...I'm not okay, but it's all good 💔💯*

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Loosing someone you love is never easy
I was never a believer in the saying that

"time heals all wounds "

That's just bullshit...

Time is pain
Time is a reminder that their never coming back, no matter how long its been. The pain will always be there.

One minute you think your okay and then the next it hits you like a wave, and your crying again, your chest is heavy and you can't breathe. Your head begins to ache from all the crying that your doing. You start to notice changes in your body like loosing weight because you can't bring yourself to eat anything. Your appetite is gone, your love of daily activities that you normally do is gone, your sense of humor is gone, your smile is gone.

You...

Your just....gone

When Dustin broke the news to me about Eddie's death i literally fainted. I woke up in the hospital, completely numb. Until the meds wore off. That's when i became hysterical, the nurses tried to sedate me again but Dustin and Steve strictly told them no

Until i practically begged the nurse to give me something. Anything to numb the pain. Of course i did this when Dustin and Steve weren't around, or they'd stop me

When i left the hospital i went straight to Eddie's house. His uncle was torn, just like i was. He told me that i could stay in Eddie's room as long as i wanted to and that i could take anything that i wanted because he would be moving soon. I slept in Eddie's bed, cried in it, i hardly left his room. Dustin, Steve and robin tried desperately to convince me that it wasn't healthy to stay there anymore because it was triggering but i didn't wanna leave

I became hooked on sleeping pills, anti depressants and Valium. When the crew found out they tossed the drug's out and tried getting me help, but nothing worked. I became a shell of what i used to be. I was always quiet, never smiled and had a quick temper.

When they told me everything in truth about what really happened, including vecna, their friend with super powers, the Russians, what really happened to Chrissy and all the rest of the victims, it was no shock to me for some reason i always assumed their was something strangely wrong with Hawkins

Flashback:

" he didn't run away this time  y/n ! You have to at least respect his decision t-"

" decision to WHAT !!?"

I yelled at Dustin as the tears kept rolling down my face. I felt sick to my stomach and the room felt like it was starting to spin. This couldn't be reality

" decision to LEAVE me forever !? why'd you let him do it Dustin, why didn't you stop him !"

I cried as i sunk down to the floor, Dustin held me in his arms as i cried hysterically

" by the time i realized what he was doing it was too late y/n, he cut that rope and i screamed with everything i had in me "

I looked up at Dustin through my tear stained eyes as he began to cry too.

" i held him y/n, in my arms until the very end" Dustin sobbed " and you know what he told me?"

I shook my head no, not wanting to hear anymore but Dustin continued on,

" he told me...to tell y/n that i love her and to be strong, no matter what "

I held my head in my hands sobbing uncontrollably. I then stood to my feet weakly as i continued to cry

" i can't do this " .

i ran out of the door and into the pouring rain, going nowhere in particular. Just running from pain i guess

Flashback Over

I tried numerous times to escape the crew and go back into the upside down to find Eddie, but they were on me quick. I even knew about the gate underneath lovers lake, one night i made my way out there , getting ready to jump in until i saw Steve, Nancy and robin with the boat, blocking me

" he deserves a proper burial!" I would cry " we can't just leave him there!"

Other times i would sit in his room and come up with scenarios as the crew all sat around me. They watched sadly as i wrecked my brain like a mad scientist or a crazy person scribbling on paper

" the upside down is technically in the past right ?" I would ask them " so that means that technically Eddie isn't dead! and we can find him!" I explained with wide hopeful eyes

" he's gone y/n " Steve would say, looking at me with a saddened expression

" fuck you harrington"

They all acted like i was a ticking time bomb, and maybe i am...I just don't want to believe that the love of my life is truly gone

I can't except that

I won't except that

I love Eddie Munson more than anything in this world. My heart still aches for him. I miss his smile, his laugh. They way he'd look at you like your stupid if you make a corny joke. His crazy fluffy hair, those big beautiful eyes. His hyperness

I can't give up hope
I won't give up hope

And I'm not letting go...

Ever....