𝖞𝖔𝖚 𝖉𝖎𝖉𝖓'𝖙 𝖒𝖊𝖆𝖓 𝖙𝖔 𝖘𝖆𝖞 𝕴 𝖑𝖔𝖛𝖊 𝖞𝖔𝖚

10

*relationship issues, paparazzi, fame, anger, rage, depression, suicidal talk/actions

"Andddddd the pictures are leaked." Billie shouted, looking at images of us online. There were her yelling at the paparazzi, me crying, and even some that we didn't know about cuz the paparazzi are literally spies hiding in the bushes and around every corner; fame was amazing and fun but it was also really really scary. So once you signed that record deal there was no going back.

I felt really guilty. If we had just never met, never hooked up, never became friends with Lia, never went to the theme park, none of this would of fucking happened!

I.. I was an failure. I caused all of this. And I couldn't take it back unless

I ended it all

"Billie," I whimpered. "I'm sorry."

"No love, it's okay. You didn't do-" I started crying. "No, tell Lia I'm sorry. Tell everyone I'm sorry. Okay?" I begged. "But why-" She finally understood, I could see it in her eyes. "NO!" She screamed, and that's when I made an run for it into the bathroom locking it.

I heard her yell and sob for me to come out, but I didn't. I had to do this it was the only way to fix this all
I took out my pocket knife and sharpened it. I put it right up to my neck, tears streaming down my face making small puddles on the floor, and then I- fuck!

The door came open, pushing me and the knife fell out my hand onto to floor. I rushed to grab it but Billie got it before me. We both looked up and are eyes met. She had tears all over her and so did I. Maggie came and took the knife away and I saw that she was crying too. They were all crying; they loved me.

Billie held me in an tight embrace. "I love you so so much, zio. You are my heart, my whole fucking world!" I chuckled. "You are so awesome and sweet, your just perfect. I can't lose you I can't, please!" She started sobbing into my shirt. "I- I'm sorry, Billie."

"No, Don't be sorry love. It's okay to feel this way; we're humans." She reminded me. "But Don't give up. I'm here for you and I'll always be we'll get through this together."

"Promise?" I said, holding out my pinky finger. She intertwined hers with mine. "Promise" she said;and then we shared an passionate kiss.

They love me, they really love me...

---Remember loves that if you or someone are having suicidal thoughts, or depressed, or just having an hard time I'm here for you you can message me on here anytime and there are other people out there that are here for you too. You can call the national sucide prevention lifeline which has now changed to 988 btw. They also have text and chat if you don't want to call and have many other resources to choose from so remember you're not alone and it's okay to feel this way bc that's what we do were humans but don't give up please! I love you all have an good day/night and again I'm here if you need me and so many other ppl are too