Derek,
Have you ever noticed how no matter what happens, life seems to move around you, regardless of what happened yesterday, what happens today and what will happen tomorrow? People will wake up to a new day, with or without remnants of the days before.
I feel like I'm the only one who doesn't want to forget them, everyone is moving on, but I'm not. I don't even go out now, I feel too sick, but Peter spoke to mom about my condition and she just gives me soup and the werewolf juice. Sometimes I feel strong enough to go outside for a walk, and when I do, I remember a time when I had asthma a boy named Stiles was my best friend, and a girl named Allison was the love of my life.
During these times, I always wonder how people just forget, and I understand why they want to forget- because it's not like they're people that are miles away from me that I can at least see once in a while, and when I see them, I can get all feely because then I'd remember all the reasons they are special.
They are not those people because they are dead and to be honest I've been feeling a little bit dead too.
So I find these little pieces of all of them, and I bottle them up, so that one day when they are the people that are less than miles away, people I can see all the time, people that are with me, then I will let myself feel something other than this.
I'm not good at words, I've never been at words, but when I write to you, I feel right. And I feel like half the time I'm saying the wrong right thing or the right wrong thing.
It's just a letting things out, I guess.
I don't have a lot of things to be happy about, but writing to you gives me something- I'm stupid with words Derek, but I don't think I'm stupid with you.
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Letters to Derek //Scerek//
FanficScott tells himself that it's for the pack, it's for Peter , and that it's for their fallen- especially Stiles- when he writes letters to Derek. Scott will write to Derek because they need him (Scott doesn't need him), he will write to Derek because...
