Natulog akong may sama ng loob and ayaw ko namang dalhin 'to all throughout the day kaya pagkagising, I messaged him.
Lili
Good morning. Can we talk?
Aki
Good morning, Lili! Sure.
Lili
Do you think masyado akong maaga naging interesado sa'yo?
Aki
What? No. What do you mean?
Lili
I feel like wala ako masyadong halaga sa'yo.
Lili
Playtime lang ba 'to para sa'yo? Naaalala ko rin 'yong mga kwento mo about sa panliligaw mo sa mga ex mo. Bakit sa'kin parang ang easy lang?
Aki
Look, I have commitment issues kasi. I'm sorry if hindi ko nagawa 'yong mga bagay to make you feel okay. I know it's hard to be with me.
Lili
I think you don't care as much as I do. Alam kong nagbibigay ka ng time sa'kin pero syempre, there are times na dapat nilulugar 'yong oras.
Aki
So, are we gonna stop na?
Lili
Thank you for being honest.
Aki
Bye, Lili.
Lili
Bye, Aki.
Was I in the wrong? If no, what made him give up so easily? How can stopping and letting go be an option for him?
Alam kong hindi totoo 'yong mga nasa movies or fictional stories but one thing from those things 'yong sure akong totoo, love can make you do a lot of things.
If he cared as much as I do, hindi ba magagawa na niya mga 'yon kahit hindi ko hinihingi?
Minsan lang kami umuwi and kahit galing pa kami sa byahe, I would still choose to see him.
I ate breakfast, took a shower, and did my chores. I wore a long face and napansin ni mama 'yon. Kinwento ko sakanya lahat ng nangyari and she said, despite the things that happened, we should still stay friends.
Tama naman siya.
Aki needed more time, I guess. Maybe I was looking for something long term, samantalang siya, hindi pa 'yon ang gusto niya.
Maybe he also cared, hindi lang siya ready.
Nag-chat pa rin ako sakanya when there comes a time na may pwede akong tanungin or ikwento. Sometimes, kukumustahin ko lang.
Lili
So 'yon ang chika.
Aki
HAAHAHHA jusko.
Lili
Okay naman pala kahit as friends lang tayo magka-chat.
Aki
Yeah
Lili
So mag-good morning and good night ka na ulit nyan?
Aki
HAHAHAHSHAHAH sira. Niloloko mo ba ako?
Lili
HAAHAHAH no. Walang charot, joke, jk, etc. na nakalagay dyan.
Aki
I'm sorry, Lili pero no eh. I need more time pa. Ayaw ko namang masaktan ka.
So, ako lang ang nasasaktan?
Lili
okay. I understand.
Minsan, nagpaparinig din ako sa stories ko pero wala siyang sinasabi. He doesn't care anymore.
Now I've confirmed na ako lang ang umasa. Hindi ako naging demanding this time and I kind of regret it.
Hinayaan kong hanggang chat lang ako. Naghabol ako because I thought na baka ako talaga 'yong problema kaya walang nagtatagal sa'kin.
Pero hindi.
He just doesn't like me that much at ayoko namang ipilit ang sarili ko.
-1 week later-
"Pang-matagalan ka. You're not someone that should be played. Pagdating sa'yo, one shouldn't decide rashly. I can't hurt you.", 'yan ang sana sabihin niya.
'Yan nalang iniisip ko para hindi ako kainin ng overthinking ko. I often think that I wasn't enough kaya hindi niya magawang mag-effort.
Until now, I still think of him as my shadow. He was and will always be my shadow. Yes, he was beside me but just like a shadow..
He only appears when there's light.
Kung kailan magulo at madilim ang lahat, nawawala siya.
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