I was up way too early for a Saturday, but it was all for a good reason. Well, that's if you see graduation as a good reason. The ceremony didn't start until twelve but there was a lot still to do. Dad was coming up and hopefully bringing breakfast with him. Taylor had invited Rowen and Alex to come up to see her graduate, so they were here too. The parents were all trying to come together to plan dinner yet no one could decide on where to go. My mom wasn't here yet, she's been in the city and the case she's on is very important. I think she'll make an appearance for graduation and then some of dinner before she has to go.
Both the girls will be here soon as well as their people, they all want pictures and to head over to the school together. My dress was laid out on the bed, I couldn't bring myself to put it on. Fin had actually bought it just before we split up, I didn't know whether or not to buy it so he did it. It arrived yesterday and I had only touched it to take it out of its bag and on to my bed. Wearing it didn't feel right, yes it's only a dress but it more than that. It is a reminder of who isn't here with me right now. Yet I couldn't bring myself to look in my closet for other options. This dress was the one I had thought about and the one I wanted. It would be unfair nit to wear such a pretty dress just because of him. I don't know if I can let him control my life anymore.
High school was over so why shouldn't he be- shut the door on high school, shut the door on him. Just because I am thinking all of this doesn't mean it's true, our pictures still sit on my desk and the tie meant for him hangs in my closet. How can dress evoke this much emotion. It's just a dress. He was just a guy. Just a guy, just, he was more than just a guy. Fin was the guy and I don't know why I'm trying to convince myself otherwise. It's a dress, he's a guy, I need to put myself together. Today was about me and the girls and he wasn't going to put a grey cloud over that.
A knock took me out of my thoughts. Weird, the girls don't knock and neither does my dad. I don't remember ordering anything and my mom hasn't told me she's expecting anything. Opening the door, I am greeted with a bouquet of flowers; a head pops out from behind them telling me that these do belong to me. Passing it to me I thank him and return back to my room.
I place the massive bouquet on the floor and smile at the flower choice. Red and pink tulips with some lilacs woven in there too. Together they symbolise first love, perfect love, and good wishes. Whoever got these either know their flowers or got lucky with their meanings. I notice some white flowers in there also. Picking up the bouquet I admire it. Flowers never used to be a big thing for me, but Fin made me love them and discovering what they meant. These would look nice on my dresser, but only if I put them in water.
I go to the kitchen and fill a vase. Whilst I do my dad arrives with food. Before I can eat, I need to go sort these flowers out. My dad doesn't mind in fact it gives him a few minutes to clean himself up before we eat. He's in the kitchen when I come back downstairs.
"So do you have a new admirer or did you get yourself flowers?" He asks as I sit with him.
"If I did buy them myself, I certainly don't remember doing it." I laugh. "I haven't actually checked to see if there's a card."
"isn't that the first thing you do when you randomly receive flowers."
"I wouldn't know, I typically know who my flowers are coming." I try to joke but it comes out too serious.
"Well, when we finish breakfast you can finally figure it out."
"Yes, we can find out who my admirer is."
"And you can get dressed, don't think pyjamas are the dress code for graduation." My dad chuckles.
"Trust me I know. I'm having a fashion disaster."
