Among the Fluffiest Clouds

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June 21 at 7:16 AM

Today I have appointments with Ate Ale and my therapist.

Last night I went here at our house. I had to leave Hadey alone in his unit, sensing how sad he was makes me sad too 😔 I don't want to leave him but I'd like to have a night long conversation with Mama.

I feel so much better now that I've spoken with her. I really missed her. And we're both missing Papa.

It is excruciatingly painful to lose someone.

I was in pain, and so were the people around me. We've all had our darkest moments. It happened to me almost every night when I cried so hard. It was emotionally draining and just... I don't want to feel it again.

But right now, I want to get better. For myself and for the people I love.

I woke up from a dream. I did not see much on that dream. It was all pure white, I realized I was seeing clouds. The fluffiest I have ever seen. But among them all, there's this one perfect cloud that drew my attention. Maybe because it was in its prettiest form. I immediately love it.

I just know that it was her.

I want to believe I am suppose to have a baby girl.

But a baby boy is fine for me too. Litol Hadey 🥹

Speaking of my bb, I have become not being used to waking up without him beside me. I wish I could hug him first thing in the morning today. I wish I could kiss him on the lips right now.

Hade was always there for me through my roughest days, I couldn't be more grateful to him. Sobrang sakit para sa akin, but then it was the same for him 😔 He was always there to help me pick up every broken pieces of my heart, but I wonder who helped him pick up his. When, in fact, he never left the unit, he wants to always be there for me, and I did nothing but become detached from everything ❤️‍🩹

I was detached because I was in pain. But it's been almost a month...

A lot of lovely things went unnoticed by me. I'd like to catch up with them. I feel hopeful now.

Babawi ako sayo, mahal :)

Pati sa sarili ko.

Hadey ☁️

7:55 AM

Good morning bbbbbb

Good morning, mahal
Ang aga naman hahaha

Kanina ka pa gising?

Kanina pa

Really?
Or you didn't sleep?
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I'm sorry 😣

Natulog naman ako
There's nothing to be sorry about
How's your sleep?

It was fine
I woke up from a dreammm
I'll tell you about it later this morning

Later this morning?
Sa hapon pa naman ang checkup
Pahinga ka muna ngayong umaga

🥺
Don't you want to see me now?

You want me to?

Of course 😠
I was thinking if we could walk Toppy to the park
Eat lunch outside
Don't you want to date me? 😔

Gustong gusto ko syempre
I miss you already

Date me then 🥰

I'll just get Toppy's leash hahaha

Yay
See uuu babies

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4:18 PM

Hi, Alphienut!
I miss seeing your IG ootd posts 😔

Nakakalimutan ko lagi magtake ng pics 🤣

I don't believe youuu
I mean
Naniniwala akong nakakalimutan mo minsan
Pero si Doc Hade??? He would never
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Thought so too hahaha
But I think he's stopping himself D:
He knows I am having anxiety
kapag pinipicturean niya ako

AY OO NGA PALA
Sorryyyy

It's oki
Minsan nga nahuhuli ko siyang pipicture-an na sana ako
But he would put his phone down as if he realizes something
He doesn't want to trigger my anxiety I think
He knows it would be terrible for me

Hay
Ang lungkot naman nun hahaha
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Tangina kasi ng mga tao e

I hope next time
I'll get better

You are getting better!!!!
May check up ka today right?

Yeps kakauwi lang namin
Galing din akong therapy session

How's it???

OMG ALAM MO BA
Sabi ng doctor I'm improving!!!
I mean, my responses are reaching
the doctor's expectations
Also, I don't experience that much episodes anymore!

Naiiyak ako bakithahehhehwhwhhw

🥹

I'm so happy for you alphienut!!!

I knowww 🥹

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