Special Section Series : Hiyas (Book Three)

Pain At Eighteen

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Katana Sapphire Indigo's P.O.V.

Have you ever felt the feeling of being burnt? Like the fire enveloping your whole body but it spread slowly and no matter how much you shake your body, roll around or run around it just won't died down?

It will hurt you in the most excruciating pain.

That's how much it hurts. Knowing that i have loved her to the point that im willing to disobey my parents yet the two people who claimed to love me endlessly was lying and playing with my feeling all along.

Tama si kathryn bernardo.

Tama nga na nakakapagod magmahal.

Loving hurts so much and maybe its just not for me.

I sob and wail out all the pain, nakakapagod umiyak pero bakit di maubos ubos ang luha ko.

"I Loved her lolo! I-i love her but they played me! Her and her fucking sister who claimed to love me! I hate them! I hate them lolo! I hate myself for being so stupid for falling!" parang bata kong sumbong kay lolo chandler.

I grew up in his care, siya yung lolong kinalakihan ko when my parents, parents died a long time ago, hindi ko na sila nakilala pa.

He tighten his arms around me, he was not a man of words but as long as i feel that im not alone right now..siguro, siguro magiging okay din ako.

"Loving hurts princess but it also makes you stronger and if they did something like the vile thing that they did then its not love" his voice soft yet it almost sounded empty.

I understand, lolo was never good with showing or voicing out such emotions, he's so strong like that.

"My heart feels like being stab lolo, i dont deserve this pain" buo ang boses ko kahit na para akong nauubusan ng hininga dahil sa pagiyak at patuloy na pag agos ng luha ko mula sa mata ko.

He humm before pulling back and holding me by my shoulder while looking straight at me with a hard look.

"Say the word and we'll take care of them" his words got my breath caught in my throat.

Tila naputol ang paghinga ko as his words sink in to me, take care to them usually means a painful give back, an eye for an eye.

Can i really live knowing i will be the one to cause snow any type of harm? Kahit sinaktan niya ako sa ginawa niya hindi ko yun kayang gawin sa taong mahal ko.

I will not stoop low like that.

I shake my head as my sobs seize along with my tears.

Tama. I know my worth and i will not stoop low on such level.

"I-its not gonna make any difference and it will not change the fact that they made a bet out of me... hindi po ba?" Tinignan niya ako ng matagal bago tumango.

"It wont" walang paligiy ligoy na sagot niya.

"Then i dont want tp do anything about it. Im not gonna be like them lolo, i will never hurt anyone like that" madiin at may determinasyon kong kahit pa marahan pading tumutulo ang luha ko sa bawat salitang binibitiwan ko.

He look at me with softness na tanging saming malalapit lang sa kanya ipinapakita. Another reason why i go to him first,why i cry to him first, dahil he knows what it felt...he knows what pain is, it might not be the same reason for us but he knows what real pain cause by love is. He understand.