Special Section Series : Hiyas (Book Three)

Acceptance

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Katana Sapphire Indigo's P.O.V.

I don't wanna go back and face the fact that when i go back wala akong amaris na mahahanap at mapagsasabihan ng mga bagay na nangyari sa araw ko.

Alam mo yung pakiramdam na parang kulang? Na parang gigising ka pero gigising ka nalang kasi kailangan? Kasi may responsibility ka sa iba but if it were just you, wala na, wala ka nang gana kumilos o kumain o humarap sa iba cause the pain of losing was too much.

"Gusto mo na umuwi?" Tanong niya na di ko pinansin. We are currently at alexander's forest. I wished to be here and khalil granted that and i am greatful.

He was silent when since we got here, tahimik lang siya even if i know that he wants to talk.

Im glad that he didn't try to console me cause consoling me wont bring amaris back to life.

Siguro para sa iba ang oa ko na, maybe they we're thinking that im crazy and stupid for acting like the way im acting already but they can never understand my pain until they experience it.

"As kids we use to play here a lot.." i started out..i dont know whats the reason im telling him this but i just want to let this all out.

Baka sakaling mabawasan yung sakit...baka sakaling makahinga ako ulit kahit papano.

"Me, crimson and amaris.." i smile as i look at wide land of grass where us three always play.

"This is our safe heaven, lahat ng problema namin tinatakasan namin lagi at dito kami pumupunta, lolo chan allows us. Simula kasi nung lumaki na sila zio christian lagi nang magisa si lolo at kahit di niya kami tunay na apo he see us as his" my eyes swell with tears habang naaalala ko kung gaano kami kasaya nung bata pa kami.

As kids we never wish to grow up like other kids, we always wanted to stay as kids kasi alam namin na pag lumaki kami doon mas bibigat yung responsibilidad na ibibigay samin and we hate that.

"Busy naman sila so all our free time? Kila lolo lagi kami either sa A.V. o dito" i wipe my tears harshly as i try not to cry so much pero wala ayaw talaga tumigil ng luha ko.

Ano ba katana why are you so weak? Hindi ka naman ganito! Putanginang buhay naman to puro nalang kamalasan!

"Alexander's are my family at si crimson at amaris? Sila lang kapatid ko, they stood up for me against my family, cry for me when i can't, laugh with me when life becomes too hard and loved me like no other kaya siguro masakit spinel kasi wala na, kulang na kami, and it hurts so bad spinel. Its as if amaris took a part of my heart with him and it sucks cause im still here in this cruel world, i still need to live while my brother who actually wants it stopped breathing already" i slowly turned to him, taking my eyes away from the shadow of the past that appeared infront of me.

"How spinel? How can i go through this? Kasi hindi ko pwedeng solohin si crimson all the time cause amber needs him, mom will kill me if she sees me crying, dad don't give two fucks about me at si ate? She'll just rat me out to mom..." my eyes waver as i stare at him "... im going crazy spinel and i don't know what to do anymore" i said to him with a sad smile and with my tears streaming down my face like a waterfall.

My emotions are all over the place, gusto ko nalang umiyak ng umiyak pero kahit yun ang hirap gawin when you know that many are waiting for you to be weak para pagyestahan ka nila.