FUBU (Fuck buddies)

Chapter 25 BROKEN GLASS

VEGAS POV

After Pete left me at the bar I fell down on the ground, my knee's betrayed my body cause of too much pain i feel right now.

I slamp myself at the ground crying all my tears, my chest hurts so much.

Worse is the words came from Pete mouth. Im feel hurt Im like a broken glass that can't fix anymore. He didn't even let me think i feel pressured.

I can't choose since Pete and venice are important to me also my father is important too even if he's not seeing me as his son.

Since i was a child i always doing my best to get my father's attention that someday he will be proud of me.

I was lying here in the floor feel worthless. I feel someone touch me at my shoulder and turn my head it's kinn he look at me with a pity look.

He lend his hands on me helping me to stand.

Kinn path my shoulder and comfort me handing a glass of alcohol.

He didn't know what to say so he comfort me through actions only and I'm too thankful for that.

“Kinn Pete make me choose, i don't know what to do” I said while crying.

“Then choose what's best for you” kinn said.

“It's so hard kinn i don't want pete leave me, either my father too” I'm feel worthless right now.

“How should i fix this mess, why god punishing me like this” i cried even more, I can't hold my pain anymore Im not a person who cry easily but when it comes to pete my emotions can't handle anymore.

I drink until i passed out and cry all night.

I woke up at my room maybe kinn send me home last night after i passed out.

I dont have energy to stand up and start my day so i lay in my bed all day and cry.

I didn't eat i want to be alone i need to remove all the pain first before to start another new day.

I lock myself for 2 days cried all the pain and thinking what should I do and I decided to take what my father's want.

Pete last words that day triggered me to let him go already but im still hoping that he was kidding me and he said all that cause his mad at me.

Pete words that will mark in my brain that he said that they can live without me. 

It hurt's me so much that what did i do to punish like this all i want is to accept and to give love to those person are important to me.

Pete i will not let you go plsss be patience and let me clean this first.

~Week passed~

It's the engangement party today the day that my father held a party to announce that Yim and I are getting maried next month.

And i hate this event so much.

yesterday i receive a message from pete telling me how evil my father to send him an inviatation to this engagement party.

And i want to reply to him but he immediately block my number.

My father really mess with pete even if i follow what he really wants.

I sense something's fishy i know my father i sense that he wants also to steal pete family assets so he can beat my uncle.

I hate him so much.

Yim cling her hands over my bicep and lean her head over my shoulder i hate this bitch but i act like we're inlove but im iritated inside.

I want pete not this bitch.

The party went well I fake all my smile to the guest faking my concern to this bitch beside me still clinging to me.

When i saw no one already around us i push her and move away her hands on me.

“What's wrong with you vegas we're engaged now your supposed to held me” she said

“I don't like you, your not oete so dont fucking hope that i will like you” i said and walk away but she grab my hands.

“We're getting married whther you like it or not Vegas, that gay your talking about i will surely he's going to hell if he pry to our wedding!” she said that make mad.

I grab her face and squish his both cheeks and tighten my grip on his face.

“Don't lay your hands to pete and mess with him, Or else you and your father won't see the sunset in the other day don't test my patience slut!” i said angrily nd shove her face and left her.

~Next day~

I recieve a message from kinn that he remind me that Venice is birthday coming next week.

Pete allowed me to go to my sons celebration and I'm thankful to that.

Even if i want us to celebrate as family but it can't be happened anymore.

I feel sorry for my son tp ruin our family and most specialy his birthday that we can celebrate as happy family.

I know pete let me go to our son's bday but I know that he will not let me to talk with him.

And i remember tha last day that we're okay that we are happy toegther.

The day we pick a gift for Venice the last day that he show me how he love me until it ruin all veacuse of Yim.

I miss Pete so much and Venice too.

I miss playing with them and sleep beside them.

Just wait for me my love i will not let you go unless i die.

To be continue......

AN: Guys sorry for the late update. Writing vegas pov it's so hard so much, I don't know if I'm the only one having a hard time writing vegas pov since he's pov is too painful. it's so hard to describe all what he's been through it's much easier to understand his feelings or what he really wants. I've been mental block and stock sometimes so i had so much time to gather my sense again i don't know why so im sorry i tried all my best that's all i can write in vegas pov.