In The Dark...

chapter 18: I'm not him!!

Jason really had no idea what to do now. Everything that Dino has told him is true. He thought to himself that he should have told the truth instead of freaking out.. Dino was highly upset he just didn't have nothing else to say to Jason.

Jason: what do I do now?!

Dino: you seriously asking me that right now?! How would I know Jason?!
You are the only one who could make this right!

Jason: I don't even know how to start..

Dino: all I know is just don't start with I'm sorry because to be honest if I gave a man my first man experience and he did what you did and then you come with the I'm sorry I will grab that laptop and hit you on the side of your head you with it!! So do better than I am just sorry!!!

Jason: I should have just told you the truth...

Dino: and what truth is that exactly!!

Jason: really?!

Dino: yeah!! Really!!

Jason: the truth is I have never felt so alive as I did a few minutes ago...

Dino: then tell him that.. because right now at this point you broke that man's heart.. and you have to do a lot to fix it.. so like I said don't start an apology with I'm sorry start with how you actually feel your true feelings and I know that it's out of your comfort zone but you have to speak up about how you really feel about him.. because honestly if you don't you will lose him and that child of his and including the nanny.. look I know it was my idea of the living caretaker but I did not know you will fall in love with him but now that you did fix it.. make everything right again between you two..

Jason agreed but he wanted to talk to kyro once he has calmed down and he's alone with him.. so Jason decided to just like act like nothing happened and work all day. kyro hasn't said a word since he came back from his walk which lasted over 3 hours.. Jason try to sense if he was okay but since kyro wasn't up for anything he made sure he stayed a distance away from Jason. The whole day it was awkward between them too. Every time Dino enter the room it was just very very quiet.. Dino tried many times to bring up the situation in little bits of conversation but it was quickly dropped.. either they act like they didn't hear the question or they will start a different subject.. Dino finish work early so he was the first one to head home. kyro and Jason Are alone for the rest of the day.. it was extremely quiet in the office not only did kyro try to ignore Jason. he also in the silence try to take care of him.. every movement that Jason made kyro was behind him.. Jason did realize that he was following him and he was taking care of him during the time he was working.. but now it has gotten dark and the job is done.. now it's time to go home..

26 minutes later...

Kyro and Jason we're on the way home and it was very quiet in the car. Kyro kept looking at Jason like he wanted to say something but he was still to upset.. Kyro couldn't stop thinking about how amazing it was when they both were making love..He couldn't get out of his head how solfed Jason's lips were and how amazing he felt inside him but he still couldn't shake off that Jason might not really feel the same as him.. Jason knew something was going on. Because kyro's heart was beating really fast and he was also tapping on the steering wheel and trying to fidget with other things in the car while driving he was very unstill.
Kyro couldn't get out of his mind all he did in the office with Jason. That he finally just gave up and pull the car over. he could not drive anymore. He parks the car and then turns it's off.

Jason: what?? Are we home already?

Kyro: why?!

Jason: huh?

Kyro: why don't you feel what I feel?

Jason: what do you mean?

Kyro: i know i wasn't great at it.. it was my first time with a man... But if you give me another chance I can do better.. maybe I can do what you did to me!!

Jason: Kyro!!

Kyro: maybe if I did more sexy things to you just maybe..

Jason tries to get kyro to Calm down but he wasn't really listening... So he then quickly tries to guide himself by feeling on kyro to reach his face grabbing it and bringing it close to him..

Jason: kyro!! Listen to me it was amazing!! Everything you did to me in that office was amazing!!

Kyro: then why am I not good enough for you to love me back?!

Jason: I do feel the same way as you trust me I am fighting the urge to kiss you right now.. but I am not an easy person to love.. there's something I have to tell you...umm

Kyro: I am not him!

Jason: huh!

Kyro: I am not the man who broke your heart and took the most precious person in your life away from you.. I will never do that because I'm not him! I overheard you and Nanny talking and I heard what you told her about the man who took your heart and destroyed it. I will never hurt or take anything valuable away from you. You become very special to me.. I never thought I would do something like that with someone.. we made love in that office even if you don't want to call it like that but we did and I never have done that with any man.. but with you it felt right it felt perfect.. and I wish I can have those perfect nights over and over with you.. like you said it was just sex to you.. so I'm going to accept the fact that I'm not in your heart and I will stick by your side working like I should as your live caretaker... So I accept just being your employee...

Jason: but I won't!! I won't accept it!!