13 Reasons Why (Billdip)

Chapter 2

(Bill pov)

I couldn't sleep last night. I tried but I kept thinking about the tapes. I know it's probably best if I just get through them as soon as I can but if they do get worse, then do I really want to hear it? But I can't just not hear it. And worse, how bad was I? What did I do that made him feel like he couldn't live anymore?

How does Will know about the tapes? Is he on them? Did he make Dipper's life horrible as well?

I turn my alarm off as I get out of bed, getting dressed and grabbing my school stuff. I step out into the hall and bang on Will's door. The minute the door opens I grab his collar and slam him against the wall.

"How the fuck do you know about the tapes?"

"It's complicated."

"Are you on the tapes?"

"No."

"Then just how?!"

"Because he trusted me to make sure they got around to the correct people. It wasn't anything personal against you. But it's complicated. All I had to do was make sure everyone listened to the tapes and make sure they went to the correct people."

".....What did I do?"

"I can't tell you."

"Why the fuck not?"

"I just can't. That's not the way he wanted it."

"How would you know what he wanted?! He's dead and instead of helping him you were in on this fucking plan!"

"It's not like that."

"Bullshit it isn't!"

"What about you then? Where the hell were you when he needed you most? Did those years of friendship and crushing on him forever really mean nothing in the end?"

I glare at him as I shove him away and storm downstairs. I ignore my parents protests as I go outside grabbing my bike00 and start just riding my bike the two miles to school.

My mind just keeps going over my argument with Will. Fuck, I shouldn't have yelled at him like that. What happened to Dipper isn't his fault, I know that since he said himself that he's not on the tapes. Everything is just so frustrating.

A car honk pulls me back to reality and I swerve to miss a car, crashing my bike and crying out feeling my head hit the sidewalk. I painfully sit up, feeling blood dripping down my face.

Sighing I push my bike the rest of the way and wipe the blood away before walking into the school. I put my earbuds in and turn the tape over, pushing play.

"Most people are lucky to have one person who is there with them through everything. I felt like the luckiest person because I was born with someone there for me no matter what I went through. I really hate that this person is even on this list in the first place. Mabel, this tape is sadly yours."

His own sister is seriously on these tapes? Fuck.

"Junior year we had a knew kid join the school and he quickly became friends with me and Mabel. When it wasn't me and Bill, it was us three musketeers. But slowly it was just me and I soon realized why. Then came the day of that stupid fucking list."

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(Dipper pov)

I sit in class doodling in my notebook, hearing the kids around me snickering at something. I do my best to ignore it until a slip of paper is put on my desk. I glance up at the teacher making sure she isn't paying attention before I unfold the paper and read it.

It's just a list, labeling students as having best or worst physical features. I'm about to pass it on to someone else since it wasn't interesting to me until my eyes land on one category. Under best ass was my name and worst ass was Mabel's name. I recognized the handwriting instantly.

I angrily crumple the note in my hand and once the bell for lunch rings I stand up angrily putting it in the trash before rushing down the halls to the cafeteria, sitting at my usual table with Bill. I put my head in my hands, still frustrated about the list.

"Hey, is this about the list?"

"You saw it?"

"Someone took a picture of it and put it on instagram."

"This day is the worst."

"It's not that bad, Dipper. The whole list is just a stupid joke that no one even ever takes seriously. The whole thing will blow over in like a week, two at tops."

"And if it doesn't?"

"It will. Trust me."

I take a deep breathe in and out to help me calm down. "Okay."

"Are we still on for watching that comet this weekend?"

"Of course. It had better be as cool as you say it is though."

"It is, believe me that it is."

"You jerk!" I look up as Mabel storms over to the table. I stand up grabbing her arm pulling her away from the table, not wantint Bill to overhear this.

"Mabel, the list doesn't matter."

"Like hell it doesn't. How long have you two been seeing each other, huh?"

"We haven't. We are friends, at least we were until you two ditched me."

"You have been jealous of us ever since we started dating."

"I wasn't jealous, Mabel, I was upset because you didn't bother telling me that you two were even together. I had to see you two at out cafe on a date. Him putting us on that list is just him being an asshole by himself."

"So he just dumped me on his own for no reason then?"

"I'm sorry, I didn't know he dumped you."

"You both should go to hell."

"Fuck you." I say angrily, unable to stop the words from spilling out. Before I can react she slaps me hard across the face then leaves, leaving me standing there just too stunned to say anything before I run out of the cafeteria, needing to just be alone and away from everyone else.

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I pull the earbuds out as the tape ends. I see Mabel getting stuff from her locker so I head over to her.

"How much of it is true?"

She glances at me confused. "What?"

"Your tape. How much is true."

"He lied. He screwed up my life. He is nothing but a liar, especially the shit he talks about on tape 9."

"Why? What happens on tape 9?"

"He lied." She repeats before walking down the hall, leaving me even more confused than before.