Tear (Love Yourself Tour - Book 2)

Chapter 4

Adeline's POV:

I closed my eyes exhaling. As soon as I did, two tears streamed down my face. I hastily wiped them away before opening my eyes. I felt empty. I felt horrible as well. I know that Joon was hurt by my words. Regardless, I didn't want to lie to him. Keeping things from each other was how we ended up here in the first place. I took in a shaky breath composing myself as I walked into our room. Since the rest of my team still wasn't here, I pulled my phone out and called Torrie.

"Hello." She mumbled groggily.

I looked up at the clock on the wall immediately chastising myself. It was on 4 o'clock in the morning over in the states.

"I'm sorry I woke you. Go back to sleep I will call you later okay." I spoke.

I was beginning to withdraw the phone from my ear when I heard her call out my name.

"Adeline! Wait."

I put the phone back to my ear.

"It's okay. I'm up. What's going on? Is everything okay?" She asked more awake.

"I just talked to Joon." I said quietly.

I could hear rustling on her end which I assumed meant she was probably sitting upright in her bed.

"What happened?"

"I feel like crap that is what happened."

"I take it you guys talked about what happened some?" She asked through a yawn.

"Briefly. He apologized. I told him that I understood where he was coming from. He asked me to forgive him, but I told him I needed time."

"Hmm."

"It's just, you should have seen his face when I told him that. He looked so heartbroken Torrie. I wish that I could just push it all aside, but I can't you know? I can't help how I feel."

"I know Adeline. I'm sure deep down he understands that as well."

We sat in a silence.

"Do you, do you forgive him?" Torrie asked hesitantly.

I thought about her question before answering.

"To be honest. Yes. I really do understand why he kept it from me even telling him so. At the same time though, I am still hurt that he kept it from me. I mean I practically ran away from Seoul for two months because I was torn up about leaving South Korea. Leaving him." I sat down in one of the chairs at the table. "I don't know what to do you know?"

"Do you still like him?"

"Of course, I do Torrie. My feelings for him haven't changed."

"Well, then talk to him further. Sort things out. Unleash everything on him. How you feel. Let him do the same with you. I know this is your first relationship Adeline, but every relationship has problems that you will have to overcome. This will just be one of them."

"I realize that I do. It's just, this isn't going to be a typical relationship given who he is." Torrie was silent so I continued. "Him being a member of BTS changes things. It changes a lot. It wouldn't be the same compared to dating Jihun for example."

"It doesn't have too though."

"What do you mean?"

She sighed.

"Adeline, you can either let the fact that he is RM of BTS determine your future with him or you don't. Either way, he is still Joon the dorky, destructive, intelligent guy you met on top of Achasan Mountain and over time fell for."