Tear (Love Yourself Tour - Book 2)

Chapter 7

Namjoon's POV:

It's been two full weeks since Adeline and I have spoken to each other outside of anything work related. Even that has been minimal. It's also been one week since I had my talk with Jungkook, and I've spent a lot of time thinking about what he said. Was it really that simple? Were we really complicating something that when it comes down to it isn't complicated at all? Is it right to put myself first when so many rely on me? These were some of the questions that sprang from the conversation I had had with Jungkook.

Regardless, it wasn't something that I could dwell on at the moment because today I had decided that I wasn't going to think of those questions. I wasn't going to think about all the problems between Adeline and me. I wasn't going to let anything get in my way. At least for today. Because today, was my birthday. Today I was going to be happy. No matter what.

Right now, I was standing backstage at the Oracle Arena in Oakland. We had left Los Angeles a couple days ago after the last show. Tonight, was going to be our last concert in California since we were heading to Texas tonight after the show.

"Kim Namjoon, Kim Seokjin, Min Yoongi, Jung Hoseok, Park Jimin, Kim Taehyung, Jeon Jungkook, BTS!"

I smiled at hearing ARMY chanting our names. Hearing ARMY cheering for us was quite literally music to my ears.

"All right guys! Ten Seconds left to go." Sejin shouted over the chanting.

We all nodded looking around at each other as the final countdown started.

"5, 4, 3, 2, 1! Show time guys!"

We entered the stage and the moment I did, I reveled in it. The atmosphere. I soaked it up like a sponge. I let myself get completely absorbed in the energy that the crowd, ARMY, put out. Their happiness was my happiness. Even when I saw Adeline running around taking our photographs it didn't bother me. At one point, I even walked right up to where she was crouched down only to stand in front of her make a heart with my arms and threw her one of my dimpled smiles. Despite the camera covering the majority of her face I could see her smiling which made me even happier. 

During a break in between songs, standing on the small platform stage, I grabbed a towel and wiped the sweat off of my face. I turned around to face the crowd standing in between Jungkook and Jimin. I surveyed the crowd in awe of the sea of light that was emanated from the bombs ARMY held when Jungkook started talking pulling my attention to him.

"ARMY, are you having fun?" He asked

Cheers erupted throughout the arena as I brought my mic up to speak.

"Tonight's celebration with ARMY and BTS is just starting right now."

I lowered my mic to drink from a bottle of water. As I tightened the cap setting it down the members started to sing happy birthday to me with ARMY quick to join in singing along.

"Happy Birthday to you. Happy Birthday to you. Happy Birthday dear RM. Happy Birthday to you."

I raised my arms up as I nodded my head to show them that I was taking it all in. It was moments like this that being RM of BTS was the best thing in the world. I mean, how many people in their lifetimes can say that they had an arena full of people sing happy birthday to them?

As they finished singing to me, I smiled without reservation as Jimin, and Jin hugged me from each side while Jungkook patted me on the back. However, I was quickly pulled back into another hug when Jin pulled back by Jungkook and Jimin again.

"Thank you. I mean, I think it's my first birthday to be in front of like, you know, in on this stage like this. It's fantastic."

The crowd shouted my name.