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'I'm not cis' A short trans poem

I wish I were a boy,
I wish I were a boy all of the time,
I wish I could put on shirts and still look flat,
I wish I could dress how I want and look good,
I wish I could pass in public,
I wish I looked good.

But I don't.

I wish I had a deep voice and short fluffy hair,
I wish I could go shirtless in the summer,
I wish I didn't get stared at in the street for being different,
And I really wish I could wear necklaces and chains and still look masculine.

But I can't.

I wish I didn't have to shower in the dark every day,
I wish I didn't need to sleep fully clothed every night,
I wish I didn't stay in my room every day so no one could see me,
I wish people could accept me for who I really am.

But that'll never happen.

Because after all
I'm not cis
And I never will be.