that girl

Getting Out

As I wake up, I have my daily abuse that I have to deal with my Father. At least the she witch won't be up yet.

Anyways, I'll talk to y'all later when its the time to leave.

Okay, so tonight's the night I'm getting out of here I need to be very, very quiet so I don't wake up Daddy or Bethany.

I know Daddy will beat me black and blue if I do. Ugh why does this have to be so hard. My anxiety is kicking in. I can feel the panic attack coming on.

No. I can do this I am strong enough to do this, I think.

But am I really? Ugh, shut up brain.

This is not the time to overthink.

I gotta pack up what little bit I do have and get going.

I slowly open the window. "Come on Berlin. You got this." I said to myself even though, I know I don't, but I gotta climb out this darn window and make a run for it then, I'll be gone.

Away from all the hatred.

I hope I'll be happy on my own.

You know what, I won't be abused and put down anymore because I didn't fit in and I wasn't wanted. I need this.

But now, I need to find a place to go for the night. Maybe get some normal clothes and get a shower. Ugh I don't even remember what a shower feels like. Daddy would never let me get one.

He said it was a waste of his money to let me use water.

Like, really...come on.

I know one is that I need to get something to eat I haven't eaten in months.

He didnt feed me.

But I'm happy now that I'm out

Okay now this is what I'm going to do.
One, get food.
Two, get clothes and three, possibly a hotel room I look homeless af right now.

Ugh, sadly it's way too late.

I will have to wait until tomorrow morning.

I guess I'll just walk the streets to pass the time.

Ugh and as I start walking I see someone standing on their phone.

I got scared and can start to feel the panic come on again.

As I continue walking, I hear a voice asking me if I was okay I stop and panic the voice talks again inviting me into their home.

Oh god, should I make a run for it?

I'm not sure how people work. I've only ever been around daddy and Bethany and some people at school but that's about it.

I turn around and look at the person. It was girl who looked a bit older than me.

I slowly approach this lady, terrified of what might happen.

She offers me to come in. She said it's too cold to be out here all alone.

So I took her offer and went inside. She told me to make myself feel at home.

I started feeling the urge to panic but, I got myself to calm down.

This isn't the place I called home. Daddy isn't here I don't need to panic and worry anymore.

I calmed down and took a seat on the couch.

The lady brought me some tea and told me her name was Kali. I slowly smiled and drank the tea.

I felt comfortable here. I don't know why but I did and I think I may have finally made a friend.