Newtmas One-Shots

2-say something

Say something

Authors Note- this is based off " say something" by it's a great big world.

Not all of these one shots will be by songs.

TDC SPOLIERS-TDC SPOILERS-TDC SPOLIERS-

Thomas POV

He was screaming at me. It was all my fault. " Did I ever tell you how I got this limp, Tommy, did I?" I shook my head, but he was looking at the ground.

" no, I don't think I did." There's hardly any sanity left in his voice, in him.
He rants about how awful I am. I have never felt worse in my entire life. I know this for a fact even though I can only remember a small part of it.

" I tried to kill myself in the maze. Climbed halfway up the vines, and jumped right off.But it never worked." He looked up and stared me directly in the eye. " I hated that place, Tommy. Every second of every day. And it was all. YOUR. FAULT!" He jumped on me in an instant, pinning me on the ground.

The old Newt I know and love seems to be gone. He's here, but...just...gone. With darkness in his eyes, he rambles about how much he's always hated me. I hope it's not true...I just want him to say something that means he's okay, I always hoped it would turn out fine, but I'm starting to lose the hope...

Say something, I'm giving up on you...

I'll be the one, if you want me too...

I would give anything, anything, for Newt to be okay again. Then we could run away together. Away from all this madness, away from this horrible world.

Anywhere, I, would have followed you.

Please, Newt. Remember, please. I beg him in my thoughts. He continues to scream over me and we're both shaking. I close my eyes, it's all blurry and muffled.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.

I've never felt so helpless, I'm not afraid he'll hurt me. In fact I'm afraid of the opposite.

And I....am feeling so small.

This is my fault...how could I ever think I could change anything for the world?

It was over my head, I know nothing at all.

And I will stumble and fall

My fault. Tears find their way out of my eyes. I open them and look up at Newt...he has cuts and bruises all over his face, his eyes are showing no emotion. He stops screaming. " Newt.." I whisper and shake my head. My hand reaches up and cups his face.

I'm still learning to love, just starting to crawl.

He doesn't respond, his breathing heavy. It's like he wants to tell me something and he doesn't know how. Like his mind is holding him back. He's lost, Newt is lost. Gone. I keep thinking this but I won't let myself believe it, I just can't. I can't believe I'm losing him, especially like this.

Say something ,I'm giving up on you

The tears don't hesitate. I know I'm too late.

I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you.

Anywhere, I would have followed you.

He continues to pin me down and mumble nonsense. Our eyes don't lose each other even for a moment. " Newt, I know you're there. Please, love, let me in."

Say something, I'm giving up on you.

His eyes cleared, as if grasping one last, lonely piece of trembling sanity.
" Tommy..." He whispered. A sad smile plastered on his face and he bit his lip. He quickly leaned down and kissed me with all the passion he had. I kissed back immediately.Tears mixed in, but neither of us cared. I didn't want this to be our kiss...we broke apart and he continued to speak to me in a soft voice.
He shook his head, " Please Don't let me become one of them." He picked up the gun and put it in my hand. " No,no,no," I whispered. " You can get through this, there will be a cure," I don't even believe my own words. He's too far gone. My only love, and I've lost him. My hands shake as he guided the gun in my grasp to his head.
" Please, Tommy. Please."

And I, will swallow my pride.

My hand tightens. I look in his eyes deeply and whisper. " I love you, Newt. Never forget that." He looks back at me. " I love you too Tommy. " he hardly manages to croak out. I close my eyes tightly and hold my breath. My stomach drops. And I pull the trigger.

...You're the one that I love...and I'm saying goodbye...

The sound of the gunshot booms throughout this broken city, and Newt falls to the ground. I can hardly bare it, but I look back at him.

Say something, I'm giving up on you.

And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you...

And anywhere I would have followed you.

I can't live in a world without him. I can't.

I tremble as my hands gently run over his face. His skin is cold and pale. I close his eyelids.

Say something, I'm giving up on you!

I look over and pick up the gun. Part of me keeps imaging that he's still okay. That he's only sleeping and any moment he'll wake up and plant a kiss on my cheek. He is going to sit up and hug me, and I'll squeeze him back with every ounce of love in my heart. I don't want to let go, just be okay,wake up. Newt, wake up.Please...

Say something...

I lift the gun higher and point it at my head. " See you soon, love." My voice shakes.

My eyes are shut for the final time and I take in a huge breath. I lay next to Newt, and I pull the trigger.

A/N

Sorry....

I have an important question!! Do you want me to make a short part 2 where they meet in heaven??? Thanks for reading you're awesome! I promise the next chapter will be happy since this one was sad :)