𝙢𝙮 𝙚𝙢𝙤 𝙠𝙪𝙧𝙤𝙢𝙞 // 𝙭𝙞𝙖𝙤 𝙭 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙧

insecurities.

~ ⋱ ۪ ۫ ݂ ๋ ☽ 𝆴 ~ ۪ ۫ ࣭ ۪ ☾ 。⋰ ♡⋱ ۪ ۫ ݂ ๋ ☽ 𝆴 ~ ۪ ۫ ࣭ ۪ ☾ 。⋰ ♡⋱ ۪ ۫ ݂ ๋ ☽ ~ ⋱ ۪ ۫ ݂ ๋ ☽ 𝆴 ~ ۪ ۫ ࣭ ۪ ☾ 。⋰

(this chapter will contain topics such as body insecurity, self hate, su*cidal thoughts, self deprecation, etc! if you are triggered by these topics, do not read please!! stay safe and i love you <3)

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you and xiao were relaxing on the couch of your little humble abode. you were not feeling the best, cramps filling your stomach painfully and overall negative thoughts trying to invade you and xiao's little movie night date. 

you grumbled constantly and kept moving around frustrated, and xiao started to notice. "darling, what's wrong?" for fucks sake sir, you're giving me butterflies-

"nothin'.." you grumbled. xiao scooted closer to you, becoming increasingly more concerned. "seriously honey, what is it? you can always talk to me you know. i'm here." xiao mumbled shyly and you couldn't help but melt at him.

"i've just been feeling like shit lately, especially about how i look and-"

"darling, y/n, no. you're not about to say that you're ugly, right?" he asked. you nod, feeling the shame start to kick in. "baby, you're none of those things. i wouldn't be dating you if i didn't love every single part of you, right?"

you nodded again. he did have a point, if he truly didn't care for you, he would only go for people who had 'only good qualities.'

"i'm sorry xiao, i feel guilty for thinking this way but, it's really difficult. i try to love myself constantly but, nothing works." you feel yourself begin to tear up. xiao immediately paused the movie and scooted closer to you, wrapping his arms protectively around you.

"i'm not going anywhere, darling. let it out, it's okay." xiao's soft and reassuring tone made you cry even harder, staining his precious hoodie, but he could care less. he gave you kisses on the top of your head and started to pat your head as well.

"can i play with your hair, darling?" xiao whispered in your ear and you nodded, flustered. "mhm." 

he began to run his fingers through your beautiful h/l h/c hair, humming to help calm you down, and whispering sweet nothings into your ear. you couldn't help but giggle, even if you were crying. his cheesy lines to help make you laugh did it's job, most definitely.

"do you need me to get you anything, honey? some snacks, drinks, plushies?" xiao let go of the hug. you nodded. "maybe some water, that one plushie you got me (insert your favorite plushie/pillow), and.. your hoodie?" you hid your face at the last one, and xiao laughed. 

he laughed.

gosh, he's so amazing. and his laugh is so beautiful.

"of course. give me a second, y/n." xiao rushed to your room and to the kitchen, frantically getting the comfort items you requested. he came back with the items in hand.

"here you go honey." xiao gave you a small smile which definitely helped.

"thank you, xiao. you're honestly the best. i don't know what i'd do without you." you smiled and gave him a big hug, smushing your face into his chest, which xiao did not complain. 

"now, do you wanna cuddle and continue watching the movie?" he asked, rubbing circles on your back. you nodded aggressively and he grabbed the remote to unpause the movie.

and you later then fell asleep with xiao, the both of you tangled in each other's arms. <3

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a/n: hope this gave you a nice little flutter! it sure did for me lmao. hope you enjoyed!

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