Through the heart || Midari ikishima

Chapter six

Chapter warning: eating disorders , self- harm

I walked downstairs and saw byaka sat at the table , my heart stopped for a second. I didn't know he was home. Kirari and ririka were sat in silence waiting for me.

"Hello desire, Come sit." He glared at me coldly. I walked over to the table , taking my seat and looking towards him.

"It's been a while desire." He snarled at me. "Your mum isn't here to save you now is she? Remind me ... what happened to her again?" He smirked.

I stayed silent , not daring to retort as I might with Kirari.

"I asked you a question." He snapped, he did this everytime he came home, which was maybe once every year?

"She's dead." I muttered.

"Oh yes I forgot. I guess she really couldn't stand being around you." He ate a mouthful of food. "Could she?"

"No.. she couldn't." I felt sick to my stomach as I looked at my food.

"Eat." He laughed. "You will only get rid of it afterwards so what's the harm?" Kirari looked at him in slight shock whilst ririka looked very uncomfortable.

I picked up my fork and started to eat , every mouthful made me want to be sick.

"Good girl desire." He snickered.

I was half way through when I just couldn't anymore , I pushed my chair out and ran to the bathroom.

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I flushed the chain , leaning against the wall for a second before I stood up and walked back to the table.

I sat down in silence , my plate was gone and the others continued to eat.

"I expected nothing less from you desire." Byaka had finished his meal. "Just remember I taught you this for your own good, dont you want to be as thin as your sisters?"

"Yes. I really do." I muttered.

"Well , father, she is already extremely thin." I looked up as Kirari started talking. she looked bored, leaning on her hand. 

"Yeah.." ririka agreed. "And it's not like she ever eats anyways... surely that's not good for her."

"She's my daughter , thank you girls , not yours." He snapped , and that was the last of it.

As soon as he finished he was back out the front door.

Me Kirari and ririka sat there in silence for a moment , I was about to stand up when ririka started talking.

"You're not fat , you do know that , right?" She looked slightly confused. I had no idea why either of them had said anything in the first place.

"Yeah sure." I didn't look at her, I couldn't tell if she was being truthful. "Either way I don't see why you suddenly care." I rolled my eyes , leaning back in my chair.

"Suddenly ? Your the one who's hated us for years." Kirari snapped.

"What the fuck? I literally never hated you? Your father told me you asked me to stay away." I snapped back.

"Well we didn't." Kirari sighed. "He's obviously being manipulative yet again."

I wasn't sure what to say , they really hadn't hated me all these years? Then why was Kirari so horrible to me at times. Maybe it was out of anger thinking I hated her? We had all been really close before.

"You were still a bitch though." I muttered. "You always made stupid comments about me."

"Yeah because I was angry at you desire , I thought you hated me. What did you want me to do?" She crossed her arms.

"Not be a cunt after my mother died? I don't know." I glared at her coldly.

We sat in an awkward silence for a few moments before Kirari cleared her throat.

"While we are here." Kirari looked at me again. "Is there anything you need to tell us."

"Um... not that I know of?" I was a bit confused. What would I even need to tell them anyways.

"Nothing at all?" She questioned more. I thought about the things I had done recently, some bad things but none that concerned anyone but myself.

"No?" I stood up and pushed my chair in. "I think I'm gonna go for a swim or something. See you in a bit." I went to walk away.