I hate you (Ryers)

I give up

Tw: self hate/ kinda Ed and swearing

Sometimes I sit and wonder would they really care. If I stopped talking would they notice? Would they care?. I am never number one. I am the fucking second choice. I am not enough for anyone. They blame what they said on you.

I don't think I am enough. I don't think they would care. I don't think the would notice. Maybe I will just shut up. Cause I am clearly not enough.

I sit quietly during first period. The others just talk they don't notice. Second period the only person who says something was Troy. "Hey queer" that was the nicest thing all day.

I go home Jonathan doesn't notice. Mom doesn't notice. Now I know no one really cares

I get up, I change, I say I am not hungry, I go to school, I zone out.whatd the point. I am never in this reality I am always in my own mind. Whether it's happy thoughts or bad. I am never in this reality.

I don't care. I don't care that my head hurts. I don't care that I am hungry. I don't care I am tired. I don't care that they haven't noticed. Notice me please.

I can't do tho much longer. My head hurts to much. The hunger is to much. Why must I always give up.

I wake up. I eat. I go to school. I don't say a words. At least two things are better.

My head is spinning. My bison is getting blurry. I don't care. I am still panicking. But why show it. "Will?!" Now they care. They care when I am on the ground.

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Will starts at open his eyes. There's were students looking at him. The teacher was calling the nurse while the party was leaning over him. "Will are you ok?" "Shit" "omg what happened to him" "I bet his anorexic" "boys can't be anoreix" "Byers stay with me" "hey I am sorry this happened" "you don't even know him shut up" I sigh. "Hi" Will mumble. "Will are you ok?!" Mike Asks "Yea Byers?" Will couldn't handle it. "Shut up! I haven't said a word to any of you in a month. Don't pretend to care now" Dustin looks shocked. Lucas looks guilty and will can't read mikes expression. Will sits up more. "He's awake!" The teacher runs over to me. "Are you ok?" Will nods. "The nurse can't come down so mike take him to the nurse" will groans. Mike pulls Will up. Mike holds will up as they walk out of class.

"I am sorry" "I don't care!" Will snaps. Mike sighs. He knocks on the nurses door. "Meet me at the baseball Fields's tonight at 8" mike says as the nurse opens the door and yanks will inside.