take all of me (jacob custos x male reader)

i can't help it, i want you

Hackett's Quarry Summer Camp
August 12, 2021
5:38 P.M.                           (y/n's pov)

WARNING: use of homophobic slur

i stood at the large metal sink, washing and rinsing ceramic plates. my mind engulfed in thought, as it usually does.

"jacob..." the name just kept popping into my head. "jacob custos... y/n custos." i whispered to myself, smiling at the thought of our engagement.

"what was that?" abi asked next to me. my head shot up and i looked over at her, smiling.

"oh nothing." i looked back down into the sink.

"ooh, someone's got a crush.~" abi teased, nudging me. i chuckled and turned towards her.

"i don't have a crush." i stated.

"we've known each other since we were four, i can tell when you have a crush on someone, y/n." my eyes widened and i stayed quiet, turning back to the dishes.

"okay." she started up again, putting the plate down in the water and turning towards me, placing a hand on her hip. i stopped what i was doing too and turned to face her. "i'll tell you my crush if you tell me yours." i craned my neck towards her and my jaw fell open.

"you have a crush too?" she bit her lip and nodded quickly.

"okay, you see the guy over there." she motioned to a boy sitting at a table and talking with other counselors. "the one in the red shirt, his name is nick." her tone was hushed.

"he's cute." i replied. "you should go talk to him."

"no way." she shook her head. "we've only said like three words to each other. and you're not getting out of this easily, you have to tell me now too." i sighed and turned to face the open cafeteria. jacob was sat at a table, messing with the strings on his hoodie he looked up and his eyes met mine, we smiled at each other.

"jacob custos?! really?!" abi asked, surprised.

"yea..." i kept my eyes on him.

"no way, y/n. he has a girlfriend, he doesn't even like boys." my smile faded as i remembered what jacob said to me earlier today.

"she's my girlfriend." i remembered the feeling of him saying that. the defeat. i didn't know who emma was, but i knew that there was no way she could see jacob the way i see him.

i heard the cafeteria doors fly open and i turned to see who entered. a blonde girl with dim eyes and pursed lips entered, she was pretty but intimidating. i then noticed jacob shift in his seat as she approached him and sat down, practically in his lap.

"h-hey emma." jacob gulped.

"don't call me that, you're supposed to call me babe." she stared down at her phone, ignoring everyone in the room.

"so that's emma..." i crossed my arms and leaned back against the sink, abi shrugged her shoulders.

"maybe jacob isn't the one for you. you could go for ryan... or dylan." she tried to reason with me.

"ew no. i went to school with dylan, he's a douchebag, and besides, the heart wants what it wants." jacob looked up from emma and around the room, his jaw hung open naturally. his eyes met mine and i narrowed them at him, flicking from him to emma. he just put his head down in shame. i turned back around and continued washing the dishes, my hands shaking out of anger and frustration.

(time skip)
10:46 P.M.
"look, it's not a big deal. there always gonna be someone else." abi tried reasoning with me, messing with the strings on her hoodie.

"that's so fucking easy for you to say abi. nick likes you." i stopped pacing in my room and turned to face her on the bed. she looked up at me and shrugged.

"we don't know that."

"we do, abi. we do." she smiled.

"you think so?" she was giddy now.

"oh my god." i flopped down on the bed, inhaling in deeply.

"uhm, excuse me?" a deeper voice filled the air, it was jacob's. i sat up in bed, my heart thumped unevenly in my chest. the first thing i saw was abi's eyes on me, she was smiling and then she stood up and walked out the door. and then i noticed jacob leaning in the doorway, he had a plain white t-shirt on and plaid red pajama bottoms. his hair was wet from a shower and his cologne filled my nostrils. the masculine energy radiating from him made me shift on the bed and i couldn't help but smile at him, sneaking glances at his body.

he moved aside to let abi out and then he stood up and placed his hands at the top of the doorway, his shirt lifted a little and his v-line was exposed.

"can i come in?" i nodded, chewing the inside of my cheek nervously. he stepped inside and walked over to the bed, but he didn't sit.

"sooo... that's emma." he rocked back and forth on his feet, avoiding eye contact with me.

"is she... always like that?" he gave me a puzzled look. "an asshole?" he chuckled a little and then sighed.

"only to me really, but she says it's cause she likes me." jacob was grasping at any way to defend her behavior. i just scowled and stayed silent. jacob looked down at the ruffled sheets and then he took the opportunity to sit mere inches away from me.

"look." he began. "emma isn't really like that. she's actually really funny, and cool. and i know you two would get along." i didn't look at him, but i wasn't angry. only at myself, really. he had a girlfriend already, so why couldn't i just move on from him? silence filled the air, a silence that i hadn't noticed.

"i just don't know why you're being such a bitch about it." jacob hissed. i looked up and noticed him further away from me, emma stood in the doorway with a puzzled look on her face.

"what?" i asked, my eyes flicking between the two of them. jacob's lips dropped into a frown and his stare sliced into me.

"i don't like boys, i'm not a fucking faggot." he stood up from the bed and stepped away from me. emma smirked.

now that really hurt. jacob exited the room, emma followed but not before she smiled smugly at me. a pit grew in my stomach and my vision blurred from tears, he called me a slur. i didn't know what to do but just stare at the sheets on my bed. i didn't want to be here anymore, i just wanted to go home. jacob's cologne turned sour and the room rang with dead silence. i was so confused, but i was more hurt, betrayed. and now i had to sit here alone and process what had been said to me tonight, so i scooted under the covers and hugged my pillow, warm tears sliding across the bridge of my nose every time i blinked.

(jacob's pov)
i can't believe it, i can't believe i just did that. i walked down the hall, emma clinging to my arm as she just laughed. i felt sick, nauseous and lightheaded. i really just said all of that to him, and i certainly didn't want this bitch on my arm.

but what else was i supposed to do? emma caught me in a room, alone with a boy, i had to do something. i felt clammy and cold, but all i could think about was y/n. i liked flirting with him, i knew he was looking at me, so i carried on with it. and then i destroyed any chance i had with him.

"wow jacob, you're such an asshole." emma snickered loudly as we entered the living room. kaitlyn and ryan were watching something on the television and kaitlyn paused it when we entered.

"wait, what happened?" kaitlyn interrogated.

"nothi-"

"jacob just called that new counselor boy a fag!" emma bursted out laughing, falling to the floor.

"woah woah, what?" kaitlyn stood up and glared at me.

"not cool." ryan mumbled. kaitlyn stormed out of the room and up the stairs, towards y/n's bedroom. emma just kept snorting and laughing on the floor, ryan shook his head and i just stared at the wooden floor, incredibly disappointed in myself.