7 Minutes In Heaven (AOT MESSY LOVE)

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"Wow." Eren whispered. We were currently laying in my king sized bed staring at my flat, white ceiling. So many thoughts wanted to capture my attention but all I could seem to think about was how disrespectful my body was treated; in the best way.

There was not one area on my physical being that Eren didn't give praise to. I still felt tingles on every part of my body, it was no wonder my head was stuck in the clouds.

I could feel Erens hand search for mine and once he found it, he intertwined our fingers, giving me little violent butterflies. I could feel the pulse in his hand quicken and then slow down as did his breathing. Turning my head to the side, I could see his dark lashes fanning the tops of his cheeks. Light snores escaped his mouth as he slept peacefully and in that moment, I found myself daydreaming something I couldn't even conjure up with Mikasa.

What would a life be like- what would a future be like with Eren. What could it be?

Eren would come home from work, exhausted and hungry; his mood would instantly lighten the moment I'd walk down stairs in our cookie cutter home. The house would look more like a bachelor pad than a home because it'd be hard for Eren to give up his fuck boy aesthetic but his eyes would solely belong to me. He'd kiss my belly in hopes there'd be a baby in there after completely rearranging my insides the night before; I'd blush, feeling like I did in the closet the first night we kissed. He'd laugh and-

"Shit, I fell asleep there for a second." Eren said, his was voice raspy as he cleared his throat. "I better get going." I could feel my heart seize up; he's leaving?

"You're leaving?" I asked. I had hoped I wouldn't be a girl he could so easily move on from; I loathed the idea of me being just another line in a song. Erens eyebrows furrowed, his eyes widened in confusion as he slipped his pants back on.

"Uh, yeah? I don't do sleepovers, princess." Inside I felt a fire building, a dam giving way to the cracks he was creating.

"So, what the hell was this, Eren? Do you like me?" Eren choked, he beat his chest trying to clear his throat.

"Like you? Shiloh, I barely know you." Eren stood from the bed and grabbed his discarded shirt that branded a few holes in it due to our recent activities that apparently mean nothing to Jaeger. "Just because we fucked doesn't mean I'm in love with you." Eren shook his head in disbelief. "This isn't a fairytale, princess."

I was floored. I'd be naive to think he'd be in love with me after having sex with me but I mean, to at least have some sort of feelings for me? Was that too much to ask? "So, what? What does this mean?" Eren chuckled.

"Nothing, Shiloh. We fucked, that's it. What? Do you want me to court you or something?" I could feel my cheeks heat up with embarrassment, I suddenly didn't know what I thought. What was I expecting? Him to spend the night and wake up with new developed feelings for me as I was growing for him? I think I expected him to want something more than a relationship beyond just physical arousal but I guess that's a laughable dream.

"Got it." Lacing up his boots, he looked to me, his eyes rolled in irritation.

"Don't be like that, Shiloh. It's not like I'm your first." My eyes began to well up, my shoulders began to shake. I could feel Erens heated gaze on my body, probably realizing the truth behind what we just did. "Oh my God. Shiloh..." I angrily wiped my tears away, not giving him the satisfaction of my pain.

"Forget about it, Jaeger. Just get the fuck out."

"Shiloh, I-"

"I said get out!" Eren stood up and put his hands up in surrender but his face grew angry.

"Chill out, Agate! You're acting fucking insane." I jumped off my bed and picked up a random t-shirt on the floor, putting it on.

"Insane? No, Jaeger! I'm angry!" I picked up one of my books and threw it at him. "I'm not like you, Jaeger! I don't just FUCK everything with a heartbeat!"

"You might as well! It took you two intimate times between us before you opened your legs like every other bitch I've been with!" My eyes widened in a frenzy, I felt white hot rage.

"You're a piece of shit, Jaeger!" I threw another book, this one had some weight to it. It hit him on his shoulder. He howled in pain.

"You crazy, bitch! Maybe I'm a piece of shit, but I never pretended I was anything other than that- You! On the other hand have been acting like you're a bad bitch that loves to make a fool out of me!" I was absolutely seething at this point.

"What's going on in here?!" Hitch yelled, breaking into my room.

"So I gained a little confidence, sue me, asshole!"  I screamed.

"You're confident, that's fantastic! That doesn't mean I have to marry you if I fuck you sideways, Shiloh!"

"What?!" Hitch exasperated.

"Oh, fuck you, Jaeger!" I fumed.

"Yeah, you already did, Shiloh and I gotta say- I've fucked grandmas better than you."

"WHAT?!" Hitch shrieked.

"Yeah, well my dildo has about 6 inches on you, buddy, so you weren't anything special either!"

"Fuck you, bitch!" Eren roared. I stomped to my front door and swung it open, ushering Eren out.

"No, fuck you, asshole! Get out!" Jaeger huffed and stormed out; he barely made it out of the doorway before I slammed it closed, hearing a thud on the other side. I hope I bruised his ass from slamming the door on it.

One, two, three moments of silence and four moments of Hitch staring at me while I stared at the door. I was still infuriated but I could feel myself calming down.

"What the fuck was that?" Hitch asked one more time. I turned to her, wanting to explain my wrath and vent but I couldn't find the words. So much was said, I didn't know how to cope. Instead, I just shook my head and walked to my room.

Still boiling, I sat on my bed while my brain was on overdrive- he better not be talking shit on social media.

As I opened my phone, I could see it was flooded with messages, all from an unknown number.

Hey, it's Levi- the guy from the bookstore. Your English buddy gave me your number, I hope that's okay. Just makin' sure we're still on for tonight? - 8:26pm

Hey, don't know if you're still coming. I can't be here for very much longer, lol. - 9:34pm

I'm guessing you forgot. Maybe you fell asleep, if so, no worries. Maybe another time ;) -10:22pm

Goodnight, Shiloh. I'll see you around. - 12:47am

My heart sank. I completely flaked on Levi and for what? I felt absolutely sick to my stomach; I couldn't believe I let him down. Could I come back from this? Maybe I should go see him tomorrow, offer to make it up to him. Do I even deserve a second chance? God, I felt horrible. I was still in so much shock, anxiety and shame creeped up inside me and had me by the throat; I felt like I'd pass out.

"Knock, knock." Hitch mumbled. She slowly opened the door but I couldn't move. My eyes stayed trained in my phone; again, tears started forming, preparing to race down my cheeks. "What's going on, Shiloh." There was so much I wanted to say but I could only get a sentence out.

"I'm a mess."