Highlights {cth}

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HEY GUYS :-D Soooo idk, I'm still trying to update every now and then, but everytime i try, i don't know what to write HAHAHAHA sooo here u go.

Oh and btw, this is a flashback. Alex will be portrayed by Alex Pettyfer :—)

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e m e r a l d

 T he sky gets darker as I run through the busy streets of Sydney. I keep running. Running away from my problems and everything that seems real.

 I just don't want to be like those girls in the movies, giving all of their love to the man of their dreams, but in the end, they cry their hearts out. Regrets filling their minds as they lean their heads on the door, like usual.

"Emerald! Wait up!" 

  He yells, trying to catch up. I ignore him as I run faster. I'm so lost and confused, I just don't know what to do, what to think of what's happening right now.

I need time to think, alone. 

"Emerald! Please, just listen to me!"  I stop running and look back. God, why does this have to happen? Why?

"Emerald, please, I'm begging you, all I'm asking for is a minute." He catches up and pleads, holding both of my hands. 

 I take a deep breath and nod slowly, looking right into his eyes. His green eyes stare into mine, and time slows down. Almost as if nothing else existed but the two of us. His breathing slows down, obviously tired from running. 

"Em, What you saw isn't what it looks like, I swear. Bethany is my classmate in Literature. I don't know what happened, okay? She just walked up to me and kissed me-" 

"But you kissed her back. You didn't stop her from kissing you, didn't you? You were so caught up at the moment, huh? I bet you were enjoying kissing her lips. Because the way I see it? It looks like you were so into kissing Becky." 

"Who's Becky?" He asks. I remove my hands from his and push them into my pockets. 

"Seriously? The girl you just kissed, Alex!" I yell. I'm sick of this. I just want this to stop.

"It's Bethany, Em."

"Oh right, it's Bethany! I'm very sorry, there were just too many girls that I mix them up." I snap at him.

Actually, I'm very proud of myself. I like this sassy version of me. It proves that I am indeed, a strong and confident woman. I can handle this. 

He rolls his eyes at me as he speaks, trying to explain once again. "Let's just forget this, shall we? I don't even know what to say anymore, Em. I told you the truth. She's just a classmate to me, nothing more. Please, let's not ruin today?"

"Wow, Alex. 'Let's not ruin' today? You ruined this day, not me. I need time to think, leave me alone, will you?" I step back, still looking directly to his eyes, pleading me to forgive him and forget what I just saw earlier at school.

You see, you can't just forgive and forget. You'll need time to let everything sink in. 

"Fine. Have it your way then." He puts his hands in his pockets and watches me step away from him. Really now, Alex? 

"Seriously? You're going to let me walk away? Just like that? Almost as if I'm not your girlfriend?" I ask.

 Yeah, I did tell him to leave me alone but, why does it look like nothing happened to him? Like he doesn't care if we even break up at this moment. Almost as if he didn't even love me as much as I love him wholeheartedly. 

"This is me giving you time, Emerald."

"No, this is you, making the same mistakes over and over again. This is you, watching me walk away from your arms, as if I mean nothing to you. Aren't you even going to try again? You love me, don't you?" I walk towards him slowly, begging for a honest answer.

I don't care if it hurts, I'm already hurting anyways.

"I do, Em. Of course I love you, you're the only Girl I ever laid my eyes on. I'm giving you time, not just because you told me to, but because I don't want you to overthink. I love you, okay?" He holds my face gently. Slowly, he kisses my forehead and hugs me tight.

I push him away carefully as I look into his eyes. "I though so too, Alex. But you tell me love me but you don't show it anymore. I'm tired of your games. I love you so much, you know that. But I can't take this anymore. I don't want to think and think of what's going to happen next. If I'm going to get hurt again or If everything's going to be okay."

I look down, blinking to prevent my tears from falling. Dammit Em, don't cry. I thought you're a strong woman? 

"Why are you doing this? Are we over, Em? But you love me, right?" He asks, hugging me, holding me tighter than ever. As if he doesn't want to let me go.

"I'm sorry, but I loved someone else. I can't do this anymore. Please, if you really love me, let me go." I beg. I'm done being stupid in this relationship. I can't give him anymore chances, the damage has already been done.

I'm already broken.

"What are you talking about? You love me, you just told me. I don't understand."

"I love the Alex you were before. You changed and I don't know why. I love the Alex who stays up late and tells me jokes even if they aren't funny. Even if they don't even make any sense. He's somewhere there in you, I hope. But I can't love the Alex you are now. I'm sorry." 

I walk away quick as tears roll down my eyes. It's going to hurt, but it's better for me to do this. I don't think I'll love someone as much as I love him.

But I have to let him go.

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THERE YA GO :-D I HOPE YOU LIKED IT, I'LL TRY TO UPDATE ASAP.

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