S'pose To Be

t w e n t y - o n e

Dominique

"Woah..." I said as Gavin sped past me. "Hey, hey!" I stopped him. "What happened?" He sighed.

"I shouldn't've come." He brushed me off & left. Junior followed. I sighed.

"Gavin!" Vera ran in. "DAMNIT!!"

"Okay, what the hell happened?" I asked again.

"He kissed me." She told me. I smirked. "Said he didn't wanna date me, freaked out then left." She sighed.

"Was that his exact words?"

"He said he wasn't good for me." She scuffed, tears falling down her face. "That he's the reason Amiracle won't let him see Amandla." I sighed, then turned to Aaliyah.

"Lemme see." I told her, since she was on my phone. She looked up at me, pouted, then handed it over. I called Daniel.

"Wassup mama?" He said, causing me to smile.

"Hey, can you do me a small favor?"

"All depends on what it is." He chuckled. I playfully scuffed.

"I need you to talk to Gavin."

"What happened?"

"He freaked out after kissing Vera, then just left." Vera broke down behind me. I put the phone on speaker & pulled her into a comforting hug, gently rubbing her back. Dan sighed.

"Iight. I'll talk to him." He said, then hung up.

I wouldn't wish this pain on anyone, not even my worst enemy. I've felt what Vera is feeling. Fearing that the guy I love wouldn't love me back, thinking he'd never want to be with me, that he'd stop being my friend. Yes they'd flirt, but meant nothing behind it & crying yourself to sleep every night. I never wanted that for my sister, not my baby sister.

Daniel

"Really....?" I scuffed, reading one of Gavin's recent tweets I just so happen to come across. 'I need a fuckin drink!'. "Guess I'm gettin drunk tonight." I grabbed my keys & left.

Ion know what the fuck I'm bout to walk into, but the boy is outta shape. I've been him once, I know the feeling of not being good enough for the girl you want, for your bestfriend for that matter. I've proven on more than one occasion that I'm not good for Dominique. But every day she makes me wanna be a better man, not just for her but for me too. A better man, a great father & husband. I wanna better myself for myself, cause if you don't believe in yourself or love yourself then no one will.

"Ciroc, peach if yo got it." I said to the bartender as I sat by Gavin. He looked over at me, then back down at his drink.

"Fuck your doing her man?" He sighed.

"Gettin a drink.." I told him as the bartender brought my drink. "Thanks man." I gave him a tip. He nodded & walked off. "What's going on withchu man?"

"I assume you already know." He scuffed. "Dominique big mouth ass tells you every fuckin thang." I chuckled. Yes, it's true. "I'm good."

"Fuck you freak the fuck out for then?" I scuffed. He looked at me. I chuckled, downing my drink. "Cause you like her. Maybe even love her." He sighed.

"Took her fuckin yo ass for me to realize I want her more then just a friend." He told me. I sighed.

"That was not one of my best decisions." I rubbed the back of my head. "In my defense—"

"You took her virginity, you know that?" He cut me off. "You gave her her first kid." I sighed.

"I know man." I waved the bartender down for another drink. "I was bugging out, I got high. I thought talking to the only other person Niq vented and told all her secrets to would help me understand what I could do or what I was doing wrong."

"So you fuck her?!" He spat.

"Nigga, her ass was rubbing on me and shit like Dominique would when I was stressed out. Then her ass was all that was on my mind!" I spat back. "So yes! I thought Vera was Dominique at that point in time and we fucked." He groaned, ordering bout twelve shots.

"Guess that's how I felt with Amiracle." He downed six, sliding about four over to me. "Told her about Vera and you, then Jet." I downed them shots back. I groaned. "I only hooked up with her to get at her daughter." I paused.

"Nigga what!?"

"Yeah man.." He chuckled, then downed the rest. "I went to school with Yalani, her daughter, but she wasn't into me. Mira was a therapist & had her when she was bout 15. I'd go to her every week for an understand on why I couldn't commit." I shook my head. "She told me maybe a trial run with someone I knew that was into me would, you know, solve my commitment problem."

"Throwed off.." I scuffed. He just shrugged.

"Couple months went by & I'm liking the shit." He chuckled. "Like I could possibly marry this girl one day. But on my last meeting with Mira, we fucked. She always wearing all this seductive shit, and I needed to fuck. The girl I was with wasn't putting out, and Mira was a hoe." He groaned. "After that, I ghosted 'em. Then when Mira told me she was pregnant, I told her she was a liar that it wasn't my baby. Said that she was a hoe and ain't no way that could've been my kid." WOW! "And after the DNA test, I been trynna do right by Mandy. I buy her shit when I get Junior & the twins something, I try to go by and see her, even in my court hearing I've been trynna file for joint custody. She shut it down every time."

"Damn man." I sighed. "If we ain't fucked up in the head, Ion know what the fuck we are..." He laughed.