S'pose To Be

t w e n t y - t w o

Véronique
An hour and a half later

"C'mon babe." Dominique rubbed my back. "You gotta calm down."

"How can yo-you love someone that-that doesn't love you baaaack!?" I cried.

"It's not hard." She sighed. "But you got—" She was cut off by her phone ringing. I continued to cry. "Liyah?" Aaliyah sighed & gave her the phone. Niq answered & put it on speaker. "Daniel, not now."

"Heyyyyyyyyy baby!" He chuckled into the phone. "H-how youuu doin?"

"God, he's drunk." She scuffed. "Where are you, Dwayne?"

"I ca-can't—"

"TH-THERE'S STRIPPERS EVE-EVERYWHERE!!!"
Gavin slurped. "VERA'S GONNA KIL-KILL ME!" Then he laughed. "I'm sooo dead!" I felt Dominique hold her breath so she wouldn't laugh. She continued to rub my back. Dig laughed.

"Woosa, woosa..." She breathed out slowly. I sat up & wiped my tears.

"Dumbass!" I groaned. Then snatched the phone from her. "Anthony!"

"Oop.." Niq & Dig both said.

"He-heyyyyy baby!" He laughed. "I swear I-I ain't at K.O.D-D."

"Dumbass." Niq laughed & grabbed her keys. "Dwayne, I swear, you better not fuckin move."

"Not possible." He laughed, then Niq snatched her phone back & hung up.

"Come on Liyah. You're going back to daddy's house." She squealed & basically ran out the door.

Once we dropped Aaliyah off & had Odell take us to K.O.D, I was deep in thought. He wouldn't've kiss me if he didn't have some type of feelings for me, right? Like am I tripping? He freaked out so that means something, doesn't it? I really wanna believe that Gavin wants to be with me, but he's proven many times that he doesn't want me. Someone please help me understand...

"Fuckin dumbass!!" Dominique yelled, snatching Dig up by his ear. He groaned.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" He yelled as she dragged him out. I looked over at Gavin.

"You want the same thing or are you going to walk out willingly." I folded my arms. He looked up at me with the most innocent look on his face, then looked down at his feet & got up. "Wise choice." I pushed him towards the exit. "Keys." He sighed & gave them to me. I helped him into the car & once I got in, I drove in silence.

"I want you..." I heard him say. I looked over at him, then back at the road. "For a while now." I felt him start rubbing up my thigh. "But Ion know how to be what you need me to be." I grabbed his hand & held it.

"Just be yourself, that's all I ever want." I told him. "I know you, inside and out. I know how you are......how you are with me, with the kids." I smiled to myself. "Just be that."

"I love you."

"You don't mean that." I sighed softly.

"I do." Then he scuffed. "Drunk out my gotdamn mind and ya still don't fuckin believe me."

I wanna believe him, I do, but how can I? He's rejected me, he's basically avoided me. Now, all of a sudden, he wants to be with me. He's in love with me? If only it were true. He doesn't love me, he just thinks that he does. He wants to love me, but he's incapable. He just a boy. He doesn't know what love is.

Dominique

"Have you lost all of your entire fuckin mind!?" I continued to yell. "What were you thinking?" He sighed, still rubbing his ear. We haven't even left the club yet. I'd rather not drive, as pissed as I am right now. "Do you ever think about the shit you do? Do you ever think how this affects me? You think I wanna see on the news that you've come up dead from drunk driving?" He sighed again & rubbed his temples.

"I thought Gav could use a friend." He finally spoke. "Forget bout the bullshit he dealing with or trying not to deal with." I got quiet. "Nigga in bad shape, hell we going through the same shit. I needed a fuckin drink too." I sighed & started the car, driving him home.

Later that night

"You feeling better now?" I asked him as he came out of the shower. After I finally got him sober, he threw up all the alcohol in his system.

"Yeah, thanks Niq." He kinda smiled as he walked out of the bathroom naked. I just nodded & looked away.

Words can't describe how much I miss him, but Jettie, Aaliyah, Odell......I just feel like getting back together would just leave open wounds that will never heal. I know Odell doesn't care & I know that he's seeing someone, but the history that Dan and I have...I don't know, I feel like this won't end well.

"Look at me." I heard him say, pulling me out of my thoughts. "Niq?" I looked up to him in just his boxers. "What's wrong?"

"Everything that's going on with Vera and Gavin..." I sighed. He smiled.

"Reminds you of us."

"And how this could be different." I said, causing him to sigh.

"Baby, I'm sorry." He sat down & pulled me into his lap, straddling him. "If I could, I'd change how everything happened. I try to be, but I'm not perfect." Then he scuffed. "Wish I was then none of this shit would've happened." I giggled, shaking my head.

"That'd be nice." I teased. He rolled his eyes.

"I see you got jokes?" He got up & tossed me on the bed.

"Maybe a couple." I giggled. He smirked, then climbed on top of me. "What're you doing?" He just looked at me, into my eyes. "I love you."

"That's good to know..." He smirked again, then kissed me. I pulled him down onto me as I felt him running his hand down my shorts, gently rubbing my clit.

"AAHHH!" I gasped.