S'pose To Be

t w e n t y

Gavin
A month & half later
August 14, 2019

"C'mon Vera, ya gotta talk to me." I sighed as Dominique let me in.

"UNCLE GAVIN!!!!" Aaliyah yelled, running over to me.

"Hey baby." I picked her up & walked over to Véronique. "Vera?" She ignored me, folding her arms.

"Hey Vera!!"

"Hey Junior!" She smiled as he ran over to hug her. She looked up & glared at me.

"She's just like her sister...." Dominique giggled. "More than she'd like to admit." I shook my head.

"Yeah, no shit."

"Vera! Talk to the boy!" She spat. "C'mon kids. Auntie Vera has icecream." Niq took Liyah from me, then she & Junior walked into the kitchen. Vera rolled her eyes at me & walked upstairs. I followed.

"I'm sorry Vera." I sighed. She walked into Jetter's old bedroom. I stopped at the door. If I'm being honest, I haven't been in here since he passed too.

"So you just gon stand there?" She scuffed. I slowly walked in. She grabbed his favorite toy & hugged it to her chest. "You know Jettie always asked me if you'd be his stepdad one day." She told me. I stayed quiet. "I always told him no cause you were a dumbass that didn't know what a good woman was if she stood in your face." She smiled. "He'd always laugh and say that he'll tell Dig to whip you into shape. But what could he do? His dumbass was just a clueless, until Dominique finally asked him out."

"Vera—"

"But he always thought he could solve all of my problems for me." Tears started to fall down her cheeks. "I miss that more than anything in the world." She looked up at me. "I've been in love with you since middle school, you were my first and only crush since kindergarten."

"Then why'd you fuck Dig?" I cut her off. I guess that's what hurt the most......her fuckin another nigga.

Of course I have feelings for Véronique. I guess her fuckin another nigga knocked some damn sense into me. Got me to see her more than a friend, more than just one of the homies. Maybe that's why I fucked Amiracle, why I keep going back to Becky.

"Cause of you." She shrugged. I rose my eyebrow at her. "Miles, Morgan, Amandla, you going back to Becky." I sighed, sat over by her. "He was crying about Dominique and how he was starting to fall in love with her, and how stupid he looked for just now realizing that she's been into him for so long." I kinda smiled, then licked my lips. "But all I could think about was you...and the fact that you kept going b—" I lifted her chin up & kissed her.

"Hey, do you—" I heard Dominique. "Nevermind." I pulled Vera into my lap to straddle me & deepened the kiss.

"Gavin..." She moaned softly, wrapping her arms around my neck.

"I'm sorry baby." I kissed down her neck. "I'm sorry I made you feel like I ain't care bout you." Then went back up to her lips. "But I meant what I said. I'm not good for you, I never was."

"You don't know that."

"I know from past experiences." I sighed, seating her back on the bed. "Ya wonder why Mira won't lemme see Mandy."

"Gavin—" She started to say.

"I gotta go." I cut her off & got up. "I'll call you tomorrow." I walked downstairs. "C'mon Junior."

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