Elimination won't stop our love // a Nickloon musical fic

Chapter 12: I just don't wanna lose you again

Balloon's P.O.V.

It was dark. I was wandering around with Nickel on the beach. It was quiet. Nickel seemed a bit deep in thought. He didn't even talk to me. I was wondering why. Maybe he was upset about something? Maybe he was worried? I decided to ask.

"Nickel? What's on your mind?" I asked. 

Nickel sighed.

"Oh, it's... its nothing." He said.

"Are you sure? You seem to think of something."

Nickel just looked down and stayed quiet. 

"Hey, you can tell me anything, you know. I won't judge you." I said, putting a hand on his face.

Nickel looked up at me. He thought for a moment.

"Well, it's just... it's just that I... I... I'm not really sure I'm ready for an... an actual relationship..." Nickel said hesitantly.

I was confused.

"What do you mean?" I asked.

"Well, uhm, don't get me wrong, I enjoy spending time with you, but I think I'm... I'm falling out of love, ya get me?" 

I felt my heart break. Was he being for real?

"W-wait, you... you mean-"

"We can still be friends! It's just that I don't want to actually be in a relationship yet. I hope you understand..." 

He looked down again. I felt tears well up in my eyes. No, I wasn't gonna cry. I had to show him I'm strong. I had to respect his choices. 

"I... I understand..." I said slowly, feeling a single tear roll down my cheek.

Nickel smiled sadly.

"Thanks..."

He started walking to my cabin. I stayed. I just lost my boyfriend again. And this time, it was permanent. I mean we would still be friends, but it still hit very hard. 

I turned around, to the sea. I approached the sea until my feet were in the water. The waves were cold against my legs. They seemed to get larger too, until a very big wave came and just... consumed me. 

I didn't float up. Instead I sank down. I hopelessly tried to swim up again as it was getting harder to breathe.

Until...

I woke up. I looked around confused. I was back in the cabin. Tears started welling up in my eyes as I remembered the dream. I choked out a sob and decided to just go outside to not wake Nickel up. I quickly got outside and sat down next to the cabin. There, I broke out in soft yet uncontrollable sobs. The dream was so vivid! And too realistic for my sensitive self to handle. 

Something inside me made me believe he was actually gonna end it all too, but in real life. He'd tell me he just wanted to be friends. Friends, and nothing more. Either because he wasn't ready, or because he just didn't love me. 

I kept crying there. My head started to hurt a bit too.

Nickel's P.O.V.

I woke up. I groaned. Man was I thirsty! I wanted to get up and crawl over Balloon so I could get a glass of water, but I noticed he wasn't there anymore. Where was he? Hm, he could be taking a dump. I mean, who am I to judge? I don't know what in MePhone's name he does at night. 

But when I got up, I heard some sobs come from outside the cabin. They sounded like Balloon's sobs. That made me very concerned. What was going on? I decided to let the water wait until later, and just go and check on Balloon.