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The months passed, Somi and I got closer, we started dating, I thought I was healing the pain that my heart felt, but then my life was unarmed again, my parents' fights in my house tormented me again, who could I turn to, to comfort me if I didn't have Tzuyu or Mina?

Somi was excellent as a new partner and as a girlfriend, but I still didn't feel confident enough to tell her about the problems that were in my house, as my parents cheated on each other and then had the nerve to get angry about it, it was a complicated situation that I didn't expect Somi to understand.

It had been six months since Sana's birthday, since the night I stopped talking to Tzuyu. On second thought, I think it was the best decision I could have made, if I was hurting her, the best thing I could do was let her go, but my selfishness appeared once again asking me to have her back.

As I could have a constant struggle in my head, I was resting in Somi's arms thinking again and again and again of Tzuyu, his oval eyes, his dimples when smiling, his long caramel hair that fascinated me to caress, how Tzuyu promised to wait for me until I made a decision but I failed her.

— "What do you think?" Somi asked, taking me off my chin to look her in the eye.

— "Nothing" I answered selflessly.

— "I know you're still thinking about her, Chaeng. I know you, it wasn't worth it, it was just a slightest confusion what you had with her, now you are with me, you are happy" Somi helped caressing my cheek.

  And maybe she was right, but, Was it just a confusion?, maybe I just had to stop thinking about things that much, maybe I just had to turn the page and act as if nothing had happened, go ahead and be happy with the person who was currently accompanying me, but no.

I was not a person who wouldn't overthink at all, I knew that if I wanted to send a message to Tzuyu she would respond right away, I knew that she would haunt all my what if's, I knew her'd back to me. Or at least that was what I thought.

(...)

    The cold winter had begun, the weather services had foreseen the fall of the snow, it would be the first snowfall, at these times couples usually meet because the legend says that people who see the first snowfall together are destined forever, Somi invited me to see it next to her, I accepted.

I was in the park where you could hear the laughter of the couples waiting for the snow, I was there, waiting for Somi to arrive. I took a seat on one of the benches of the park. I was feeling the soft breeze around me then I felt a familiar perfume, it was brought by the woman sitting next to me, I could recognize that perfume from a thousand miles away.

   The recognizable smell left me stunned, I could almost decipher who it was, the snow had begun to fall and when I finally took the courage to look at who was sitting next to me, I could see in her eyes that warm romantic expression that she always gave me. I had Tzuyu next to me.

— "So long without seeing each other" I let go out of nowhere. As if I did nothing wrong.

— "Uhm... Yes, I guess," she replied as she took out the snowflakes falling on her head.

— "I missed you so much, Tzutzu," I confessed.

— "Can you get serious? Don't call me Tzutzu, don't make me this again, look at this idiotic fool that you made me" she said, standing up.

   Somi arrived, she had a lost look, she was disappointed, it was noticeable how she wanted to be the person who lived the first snowfall with me, not with Tzuyu.

— "What is she doing here?" Somi asked

— "It's literally a public park, I'm already leaving anyway, my date has already arrived, see you" she said goodbye, moving away among the people.

It had been a terrible meet, I don't even know where I got the bravery to tell her such things, it was hypocritical of me to act like this in front of her knowing how I hurt her, and now another problem was added to my life. Who was Tzuyu's date? Who was I get changed for?

— "I'm sorry I was late, Chaeng... I guess you had a good time anyway" Somi apologized.

I felt bad for her too, because I was the cause of too many problems, it would have been easier to disappear than to face them. I took her hand and planted a gentle kiss on it, I hugged Somi tightly and said:

— "It was just a coincidence, Somi. I'm happy that you and I could be living the first snowfall together, no one else. Just you and me."

I didn't even believe that lie. When will I scape from this dead end? I need to be happy, but my happiness were always with Tzuyu, how could I ever comeback to that night and made the right things?