The 1 - chaeyu

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And so I spent my last months at school, tied to a new relationship in which I didn't want to be, observing in the distance Tzuyu moved forward with her life while mine seemed to be stuck in a loop, seeing how she healed her heart starting a new relationship with Taehyung Park, an older man who taught art classes at the university.

    My school life was finally over, and the next step would begin: university life. I shouldn't worry about love affairs from the past considering that I would soon meet new people and I could start again. I just had to focus on myself, focus on meeting my own goals, stop trying to meet the expectations of others and become what I want.

I entered Seoul Art University thanks to a scholarship I obtained by effort, little by little I was living the reality of what I once dreamed of. Despite not being in a good mood to study, I did everything I could, after all my dream was to become a painter whose paintings caught the attention of the public, an art style different from the rest, I wanted it to be unique.

Somi, by her own, had also entered in my same university. To be honest, it was a little overwhelming to have her constantly around me, if I went somewhere, there would be Somi there too, I was drowning with her love, but I didn't want to ruin my relationship with her, I don't know how to be alone.

The University was a huge building divided into parts, I was studying in the painting part and some of my former classmates were studying in the composition or musical production part. Somi, Momo, Sana and my ex, Mina studied contemporary dances in the classrooms next to mine. I remember listening to Tzuyu mention that her dream was also to study here.

(...)

I was sitting in front of my lectern waiting for the teacher to give us the instructions. Next to me was a table with a palette full of colors with names I had never heard before, brushes of all sizes and thicknesses, it was really a dream. Suddenly the teacher, who to my misfortune was Taehyung, came in interrupting my thoughts.

—  "Attention here, everyone. I know it's the first class and some of you must be nervous, but the first step for a good painter is always to be calm and self-confidence, that's why today I brought you this classmate from the musical composition class to take a portrait of her face.'' he told us while he was making that person enter in the room.

Am I cursed? How could we be meet each other in every new place we stepped on? My heart began to beat hard, my cheeks turned red while my blood pressure dropped, she was standing there in front of everyone looking beautiful as always, there was Tzuyu again stealing my heart like the first time.

— "She is Tzuyu, a composition student, don't worry about her because her classes started a week ago so we are not stealing her studying time.'' Taehyung joked, caressing Tzuyu's shoulder.

Tzuyu smiled, she looked so happy next to him, she didn't even seem to have noticed my presence there. I was so mad, I wanted to get up and leave the room so bad but I had to act maturely for the first time in my life, put up with all kinds of thinking and sit in that chair until I finished the damn portrait and pass the first work.

— "Tzuyu is very pretty..." a random classmate confessed making my blood get hot.

— "I completely agree with you, Tzuyu is very beautiful, that's why I chose her as our model." Taehyung said, winking at her.

— "Bullshit" I accidentally let go stealing all of people and Tzuyu's attention.

She turned to see me and there was when she recognized me, I was ashamed of myself, but at least I had gotten what I wanted, her attention, but now Taehyung was confused and even a little upset by my expression.

- Excuse me? Is there any problem? - Taehyung questioned approaching me, everyone's stare was on me.

<You are my fucking problem> I wanted to say, but I wasn't going to be embarrassed in front of everyone again, at least that's what I wanted.

— "Nothing, I just used the wrong color, I'm sorry I interrupted your flirt with Tzuyu" I replied as I cleaned my hands.

My classmates were speechless and followed my game they accompanying me with a "Uh..." in unison that made me giggle a little.

— "I don't think your comment is appropriate, miss. I wasn't flirting with the student, I was just admiring her beauty as any student of art or any art lover would. It's the first class, I hope this behavior changes or maybe we won't get along very well." He replied by staring me defiantly.

Tzuyu was surprised, maybe they wanted to keep their relationship as a secret to protect Taehyung's work. Her stare was still on me, she was trying to understand me, to understand my attitudes, which I didn't even understand. I got up from my chair turning my eyes to Taehyung, I bowed slightly and apologized.

— "I'm sorry, teacher. I promise that this will never happen again..." I apologized smirking a bit.

That wasn't a real apologize, anyway.