I'll always want you!

~*Chapter 47: Harry*~

Oh...holy hells bells.... I'd never experienced anything like that before in my entire life! I wanted more! I needed more. I needed Louis so bad it physically hurt. I said it before I even knew the words were out of my mouth. It just came out and told Louis I wanted to have sex with him...oh god why did I say that?

His face went white and he stiffened up.

"No...no this was a mistake Haz.... this shouldn't have ever happened. "

Wait...WHAT? I had to shake my head to clear my thoughts. Did he just say what happened between us was a mistake? That it should never have happened?

"Wh.... what?" I could barely get the word out of my mouth? How could he say that? That was the most awesome moment of my life.... . how could he say that? I saw the way he was looking at me. He felt it too. I know he did!

"I'm so sorry baby...I should've never let that happen. I promise you I won't ever do that to you again. "

Oh my god I'm so fooking confused right now I just wanna scream. I threw my hands in my hair and shook my head to clear my thoughts.

"What the hell are you saying Lou? How can you say that was a mistake? How.... how can you do that to me...make me feel that way and then tell me it was a mistake. NO! That wasn't a mistake! I don't for one minute regret any of it. "

Louis pushed away from me and ran his hands through his hair. He looked me up and down and zeroed in on my shorts that were still unbuttoned.

"Lou, I want you. I've wanted you for so long now please don't say that this was wrong..." I started to move towards him but he put his hands up to stop me.

"NO! I fooked up.... I didn't mean to do that Haz. You.... you have a fooking boyfriend!" Louis said as he looked at me shocked.

I shook my head back and forth.... no.... he wasn't going to use Ed as a way to get out of this.

"I don't want Ed .... I want you Louis! I love YOU!"

He just stood there and looked at me stunned. At first he seemed relieved when I said I didn't want Ed .... then it turned to confusion and now...I don't know how to read his face. The emotions running across his face were starting to freak me out. He looked........ angry?

He laughed.... Why the hell would he laugh?

"You love me? No you don't Haz, you just got caught up in a moment that I should have never have let happen. It was all a mistake Harry.... If I could take it back I would. It didn't mean anything. "

I felt the water building in my eyes. NO! I wouldn't cry.... he didn't mean what he was saying....... how could he be saying this to me right now.

"I thought....but I thought you wanted me Louis? The way you were looking at me......"

He ran his hand through his hair again and turned away from me. I couldn't move.... I just stood there watching him. He took a deep breath and turned around to face me again. There was no emotion on his face what so ever.

"I'm sorry Haz if I led you on. I.... I just got caught up in the moment and I wasn't thinking clearly. It didn't mean anything and I think we need to just forget this ever happened. "

I can't breathe.... oh my god I can't breathe.... my whole world just turned the fook upside down. The only man I have ever loved.... ever wanted.... just basically told me to fook off. I felt a tear slide down my face. I couldn't even move my hand to wipe it away.

Louis face instantly looked like he was in pain....he stepped forward and reached out to wipe the tear away.

I stepped back.