Friends with benefits(book 2) A Vallyk Pena story

🦋 Endgame 🦋

B: Moving out? W-what do you mean you're moving out. I glance back toward the boxes, hoping that I mistook what I saw. Unfortunately, they're still there.

V: What else would I mean. His tone is cold and firm as stone.

B: Ok. That's fair... for what its worth, I didn't mean what I said ok, I was upset before and I wasn't thinking straight.

He rolls his eyes and backs away from the door way

V: I'm getting tired of these excuses, Bella.

B: I know- I know I'm an asshole. It's just that.. I've been lost for a long time, and I used to ask myself if and when I would ever be happy, truly happy. The only time I ever felt like I could breathe was with you. And now I know that you're the answer. So, can I please just come inside so we can talk?

My eyes are glossy and filled with desperation staring at the indifferent expression on Vallyk's face.

V: Sorry, but no- my heart drops- you can't keep pushing people away and then force yourself back into their lives whenever you want. You're entitled and you confuse me, Bella. Empty apologies and a sad speech aren't going to change that.

He shuts the door without another word.

Although I'd wished for this to go very differently, I understand it. I nod at the door and slowly turn to head back down the stairs to my car. I wipe the tears off my face before walking, I don't deserve to cry.

I halt once I get to the stairs. Every ounce of my body wants to walk back to that door and keep trying... but I should respect his wishes and leave.

You're pathetic, I mean every time things get hard you give up...Your problem is you love to self sabotage and without even realizing it... you love him, so fight for him... you just have to take a leap of faith.

Marina's words replay in my head and it's all the motivation I need. With a new sense of confidence I walk back to his apartment door and knock, a little louder than I should. As soon as the door opens and I see Vallyk the words start to flow- more like flood out of me.

B: Listen I completely understand where you're coming and I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I'm a coward and I run away from conflict and that I don't fight for what I want but what I want is you and Im sorry if that makes me sound entitled but its the truth and I won't stop loving you even if you decide to close this door in my face again which I really hope you don't because honestly I don't know what Id do with myself or if id ever be happy again because honestly these past years without you in my life have been complete shit and I could never figure out why but now I know that I love you and I can't live without you.

Id started sobbing mid sentence so now I'm gasping for air with tears and snot rolling down my face. Vallyk is staring at me with raised eyebrows and a slightly slacked jaw. He has been for the last twenty seconds.

A wave of embarrassment washes over me and I cover my face sniffling and wiping my tears which isn't effective because hot tears roll down my face because not only am I about to get rejected but I just humiliated myself.

B: I am- I don't know what that was. I peek in his direction; his jaw has loosened and his expression is softer but he still hasn't said a word. Great now he pities me. Im just gonna go.

Once my back is facing him and he can't see me I shut my eyes tightly and purse my lips, I can' t believe I just did that. Fucking idio-

my thoughts are interrupted when Im pulled back my from my forearm to face Vallyk whom is centimeters away from me.

V: Im really hoping I don't regret this in the future, he whispers, although the words don't register in my head because all I can think about are his arms wrapped around my waist.

My lips spread into a smile and he kisses me. Warmth pools down my neck and into my stomach as he pulls me in closer. He pulls back and rests his forehead on mine.

B: I wish I could've looked a little more presentable doing this, I chuckle.

He cups my face in his hands and swipes his thumbs under my eyes to wipe my tears

V: You're beautiful.

Im smiling like an idiot now and can't look him in the eyes, like I'm a kid again.

He leans down to my lips and kisses me again. I wrap my arms around his neck as he guides me into the apartment, kicking the door closed behind us.

Thank god for that leap of faith.