INTROVERT ED

SOHAM

As I had finished my work, I had to show my work to Ankit, he wanted his account details as soon as possible, his CA had told me to take the information out and show it to him, he would sign it and then I will show it up to Ankit, I took the pen drive out which had information about his account, I went to the printing machine, which was next to the door of entrance of this floor, as of this was not that big of a company which would just keep a printer with every computer.

I took the print out, and was looking at each page properly.

'Hey!'

'What?' Papers fell from my hand, I turned back, it was Tania there, I was so much into the checking that I got scared by that simple thing.

'I would never like to watch a horror movie with you,' she said and laughed.

'Why?' I said and picked up the papers one by one.

'You get scared so easily,' she said.

'Tania, I was into this checking stuff, Ankit wants this papers as soon as possible, I have to go to his CA, give him, he will take half an hour to check it and sign it, I have to be quick,'

'Don't worry about that CA Tarun Jain, does he even do work? The number of times I see him at canteen, my god,'

'He did much more work becoming what he is, when people like me where enjoying during B.com, he was studying hard for CA, so he enjoys now, without his sign, the document is not official,'

'Great work, up for a coffee then?'

'Will give this papers to Tarun and will have coffee with you, half an hour will be good for having coffee, right?'

'More than enough, Ani, we will not take more than 20 minutes,'

'I will give this all up and come, okay?'

'I will order your coffee too?'

'It would be good, I think,' I said. Things were changing for me, the loneliness I felt when I had zero friends over here had changed I had this one friend named Tania and that was enough for me. More than enough. I would not blame others, how can I blame them for not being friends with me, when I can't even think properly, whenever I see a group of people. It becomes my anxiety, I start to over think again and again that what will the person in front of me will be thinking.

I walked towards Tarun's cabin, the thing which I have not been able to understand is how come Tania has become such a good friend of mine this soon? Yeah I wanted to, but a person like me who has a boring kind of life, she is the one who goes to parties, trips, and here I am feeling hevan going home and being alone, I really never thought I would get such a good friend, I always thought that she would have that attitude kind of thing in her, but she did not have it. She is simple as I want.

'Checked all the papers?' Tarun asked.

'Yes, sir,' I said.

'Thanks, you can leave now,' he said and took the papers. He looked cool with his new aviator glasses, he was just 27 years old, just a bit more than me, and he had gained that "Sir" thing.

I came out of his office, went to canteen, there was Tania with some other guy, of whom I had saw face but did not knew the name, that is the thing which had developed in me, I knew everyone here, but most did not know me.

'Tania, I am here,' I said and sat next to her as the other guy was sitting facing her.

'Take your coffee from the counter and come back here,' she said.

I stood up and took my coffee from the counter, paid the money and came back, but now he was sitting beside her, it was good, as I did not have that much of guts to sit right beside her. I sat facing her, they two kept on talking about something I did not even have a clue about.

'Do you even know that animal who looks that bad?'

'He looks gross, he is so dirty, please let him out of my eyes, let me drink this coffee,' she said and moved her eyes aside.

'I know you won't ask but he is my new friend, he works in our office, sits right beside me we make jokes and laugh, I was waiting for you, until he came,'

'Nice to meet you, Tania's friend?'

'Anirudh, better call me Ani,' I said and shook hand with him.

'That is a nice nickname, I am Soham,'

'Okay, nice name,' I said, I never want to make things awkward but it happens and I can't change it.

Three of us sat quiet for the next five to seven minutes, I thought I was the one who made this all awkward, it was me who made it worse for them, I am so bad, they were having there good time and then I came to make it bad. I drank the last few sips of my coffee and got up.

'You leaving?' Tania asked.

'Had to do...work,' I said.

'Okay,' she said, I thought she will say me to wait for few more minutes, why would she? I made things awkward for them.

I came out of canteen, I saw them both start to laugh and talk again, jokes were on me for sure! But seeing her laugh made me happy, although the jokes were on me, I should never become a reason for her stopping to laugh.