INTROVERT ED

MEETING AFTER A LONG TIME!

After that incident, I just felt guilty about me, which I should not have felt, it all went so freaking fast that I did not get that real meaning of it. When I just sit and think about it some time I just feel bad. Pari and I had been so good friends for so long and this 'love' thing just destroys it all. From the next day she did not talk to me or even look at me, I thought it would be real weird to talk again. I now just had this Khushi.

'Dude, I got the freakingggggg jobbbb,' she dragged the two words so much that my ears started to hurt. It was the same day, after all that, she was happy, even I wanted to be, but the problem was, Pari was a real good friend and I lost her.

'That is so sad, look now you have khushi, to have a smile on your face,' she said. We were back on voice chat talking to each other that day.

'I don't know, she was...'

'I know, but you did not love her, otherwise you just have would have said yes to her, don't spoil your mood for her,'

'I am happy that you got this job,' I said.

'You are not happy, you know once a great person sitting on bed, on discord voice chat said "Words can be said, feelings can be felt, when both come together, the person you are talking to get good vibes, this all are just words, but why we feel to talk to each other because we add up feeling in it," I am not at all feeling anything right now,' she said.

'That great person was me, I know that,' I said.

'So, when you say that all but still don't follow it, it feels bad,' she said.

'What can I do?'

'I am here, you changed my sad mood to the happy, or the most happy one, you don't know how much of my life has changed just being with you, talking to you, chatting with you, I am sharing so many life details with you because my heart does not want this all to hide it from you, even you do the same, I am not at all saying that hide feelings, I know people have sad parts in their life, I am ready to listen, the only thing I am hating is seeing you sad, I don't know you have made some kind of friendship with me, can I call you my best friend? Who I have never even seen in real life, but I know how handsome he is,'

'I am no way handsome, I look very much normal dude and I love you so much, that all, I...am just happy now,'

'Still not, I know what to do, come to "songs vc"' she said.

'Why?'

'Come along, please,' she said and left the voice channel and went up to "song vc". I entered the voice channel.

There were already some people having some time around, singing songs.

'Hey, more two people just came in, okay, we are know singing "Ek ajnabee haseena se" ready tablefan?' there was a boy named tablefan, he started to sing the song, by playing guiter. He had a real good voice, when he started I did not think he would go in such a good flow. I thought this song was just playing for none other but us, Khushi and me. We were not given the permission to talk here, as this vc for just meant to have some soulful music and nothing else.

Then it just played a song and that was 'Oh hassena zulfonwaale' and I thought about all those moments with Khushi and Pari and with friends I had in school, all the happy moments and then about Tania.

Few days ago, I went to the garden nearby by my office, I saw Soham sitting on the chair kept beside the ground, children were playing, some people were having a walk, he was just sitting alone, I went near him and said 'Hey, you remember me?'

'You are...Ani...r'

'Let it be, Ani is more than good,' I said.

'You want to sit beside me?'

'If you want to,' I said.

'Sit,' he said.

'How is it going on with Tania?'

'We were never in relationship, we just were two friends, that's it,'

'She gave me reason that she started to love you, that's why she left me,'

'What are you saying?'

'Yeah, I gave her all the love I had and what she gave me...betrayal, that's all. Just because of you, you bastard,' he shouted at me.

'She said that, you were asking for marriage and stuff that is why she left you,'

'Yeah, after that she said, that she has fallen in love with you, saw a future with you and wanted to be...yours and not mine, I am still not able to move on and that is beacuse of you, just you, what magic you did on her that she...got WITH YOU,' he shouted at me with last two words and glared at me.

'Dude, she is engaged with a guy named Kunal, I am not even in this film, how the hell you blame me?'

'I just...loved her dude, I just loved her so much, she can't do this all with me,'

'I am sorry for you,'

'You should be, she left me for...'

'Stop it, she is not even mine, she must be lying,'

'She did not, her eyes told, her eyes said it all,' he said and looked in front. I got up and moved out of that place, with a big smile on my face. With all that sadness and talks with Khushi I just forgot that Tania had said it, I can still have her. It is not too late, right?

I opened Insta. Tried to message her, but, no, I will never be able to, all the songs went on while I thought about it. I typed a lot then deleted it again.

'I can't do this all now, in real life, Ani,' I said to myself.

Khushi dm me and asked 'How is your mood now?'

'More than good, I am leaving, just the place, songs are still playing, I don't know what I am going through I will be explain all that to you some other day, bye,'