Hate Me

Chapter fifteen

TRIGGER WARNING: ABUSE

There really wasn't a good place or time to bring up the topic of Chrissy, Eddie's past or the book.

After work Eddie and I went back to his trailer, his uncle already having left for work.. we thought why not have me sleep there for the night. It didn't always have to be my place, after all.

And I really couldn't hold back any longer once we got into his trailer.

I set my backpack down in Eddie's room, rejoining him in the living room as I finally blurt out - "I don't believe it. "

"What?" Eddie asks in utter confusion as he takes off his jackets. "I don't believe you're a virgin." I clarify, "Why?" A perplexed laugh escapes his lips, "I don't  know. Why tell the truth now?" I shrug,

"What's that suppose to mean?" Eddie narrows his eyes, brows tugging together. "How much don't I know about you?" I finally ask, meeting his narrowed gaze  "How much don't I know about YOU?" He retorts.

"Look I never had sex with anyone else, sure there was some fooling around before you.." He trails off in thought, but completely serious. "The disco girl? The blonde from the Halloween party?" I counter with my arms crossed.

"Nothing happened." Eddie gives a firm shake of his head, I clearly wasn't buying it "I swear to god, girls seem to not want to touch me with a ten foot pole."his voice is hushed yet raised as he throws his jackets against the couch.

"Right," I breathe out, he shoots me a nasty look "The disco girl is from the trailer park, she bought some weed off me and needed a ride to the store.." My brows raise lazily at his explanation  "Convenient," I mutter.

"The Halloween party girl was a one off thing, we met up for the party. That's it." He makes a motion with his hand to signify that was in fact it, my position doesn't waver though. 

"And Chrissy?" I tap my foot on the ground as I ask. Watching as Eddie's brows tug together - the wrinkle on the bridge of his nose deepening  "Chrissy!? What does she have to do with this?" He was completely flabbergasted.

"I was told about the two of you.  I saw you flirting with her today," I make mention of what I had seen earlier in the day, having spotted Chrissy and Eddie talking outside the cafeteria though I didn't put two and two together until Dustin mentioned her.

"I wasn't flirting with her and who told you?" Eddie was thrown for a loop and on the defence, I shake my head "It doesn't matter." His eyes widen "It was Henderson wasn't it? I'll kill him." Eddie snarls.

"Leave him out of this." I demand, "And Stop avoiding the topic," I was getting annoyed and it showed as my fingers tapped on my arm impatiently. "What that Chrissy and I dated for like four months? That I talked to her today?" Eddie gestures to himself, keeping his head at my level as he bends down to speak.

"Thst you're secretive! You only tell people things after they find them out for themselves!" I yell, feeling my nostril as flare as my arms fall to my sides "Oh bullshit. That's not true. I don't know fuck all about your past either," Eddie scoffs, waving a finger at me.

"You never asked!" I continue to yell,
"Neither did you! I know you and Steve had something going on at one point, the way you guys are together.." Eddie's tone is mocking, waving his arms around carelessly.

"Oh my god. Why is it always about Steve?" I turn away from him, hands in my hair and ready to pull it out. "You want to go off on me for talking to Chrissy yet you and Steve have been weird this whole time." Eddie gets back in my face,

"No we haven't." I say confused,
"No we haven't, my ass. He wants you. How can you not see that?" Eddie's giving it right back, yelling in my face.
"You want Chrissy." I spit out with immediate regret.