Dear Elena
"A child who has been taught to respect the laws of God will have little difficulty respecting the laws of men."
~J. Edgar Hoover
I know a lot of people will tell you to fit in and to go with the flow but you don't have to go with the flow you can just go about your own business you don't have to swear at your own mother to get your point across or you want to be yourself. Spoiler alert you already did swear and your mother didn't get your point across it you didn't want to fit in. But that's OK shit happens. Anyway, The words make up cosmetics or beauty doesn't have to be the flu or Covid it can be just you having fun you doing art on your face. You are an artist right you can do a few things with eyeshadow and lipstick and eyeliner is very is no different from painting a picture it doesn't mean you have to sit in it just means you're expressing yourself without drastic means. I enjoy me spoiler alert again making my rose with eyeliner and doing pageant make up something you should think about doing quite quickly because this is gonna be your philosophy in life practically because of a death of your grandmother. But don't despair that doesn't mean you have to despair or mourn her for the rest of your life you can still enjoy your days with her as your pet goes floating around your bedroom that stress about it. A spoiler alert you're going to lose your mother pretty soon afterwards but again don't despair because she'll be a pet ghost as well and will be able to float around and help you cope through bad times. I know that you were stretched your ears a couple of times with your expanders and flashes founders that's pretty cool thank you. And your ancestors will thank you because you knew what they will be pretty soon anyway life will be a hard ass it always is but it'll be worth it in the end I've been through turn off already early I know you'll go through enough more later on but everything will be good keep your chin up and continue on with your life don't let other people get you down or shit in your mouth because of their crappy behaviour or their crappy moods or self-esteem again you don't have to fit in order conform to society in fact I think there is a society that needs to go to form to people like you that need to be more like you a.k.a. me. It's very important that you be yourself as the only way you're going to make it to 115 is if you be yourself. I still remember you watching that autopsy video that Mitch black made you watch along with other girls that had to watch it because he was trying to prove a point about eating disorders something he could've done with words in a lot easier way without scaring the shit out of you girls. But it made you who you are today which is who I am at this moment I am now at 4:47 AM in the morning is T Thursday, August 25 excuse me to say this but you're going to be going through some pain supposedly because you've gone through some wisdom tooth surgery spoiler over again. But besides the point I know you can be a tough cook now because I've been through it too and we are the same person. As far as high school is concerned there is some painful times they'll make you physically and manly able to be more impervious to pain I know that for a fact. Because I am you and you and I will you've dealt with this first we had to deal with PTSD Asian Dems doing grade 10 and 11 but let's focus on grade 11 you are a good martial artist you're very good human being. That is until you met Tess Tess wasn't the best person to be around although she was a practice dry run for a friendship I wouldn't want to say that about any human being but she is a dry run and now you're able to make a lot of friends both on spoiler alert again Facebook and in real life now because the word you even have nowadays an autographed piece of paper with all your friends signatures and messages on you from your group home now spoiler alert. But I just want to tell you what Chase has done she is may have done some bad things but he has done some wonderful effects do you making you the person you are today remember that the people can be putting on small screens but that doesn't mean you have to be mean to them into me that you can be a bigger person. Think about this before you go after the next asshole because I'm telling you it's not gonna be worth your anger besides take it from me which is you the future you that I'll tell you that anger is not the best option sometimes and sometimes if you're angry or breathing through someone or you're angry at somebody Langrehr the world in general my life suggest that you grab a paint brush pen or pencil write read or paint or create your way out of your problems you'll be pretty soon listen to Otep Shamaya. You don't have to be too angry I know you've gone through some anger inducing moments in high school but they will pass you in time and you can actually survive this. I have to do you with my own problems still because of your pre-high school experience with Mr. McGehee who threaten you with one Guantánamo Bay I remember my life correctly which is not a girl he threaten you with Guantánamo Bay us Guantánamo Bay and threaten the wet I'll kinds of presents from rendition and other things but that doesn't mean you have to go and be a pissant because someone else is being a pissant just try to be yourself and things will go a lot easier. And you don't have to listen to your mother when it comes to fitting in that's not gonna be a problem solver either just be who you are and you'll be fine again it's those three words fidelity bravery integrity it'll get you through in life and you don't have to be an FBI agent to enjoy those words or deliver them you just have to be you remember that.
Your friend Elena
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fidelity bravery integrity | letters to my self
Fiksi RemajaI was inspired by some thing I saw on Wattpad something there was about writing a letter to when you where going to your first day of high school. And this intrigued me very much so I thought this would be a good idea to do some my self.
