for his pleasure // jinkook

love? affection? care?

Author's pov~

"here."

"hmm"

Jin sat across Jungkook, on a chair, holding a warm cup of chamomile tea in his hands. he had passed Jungkook his cup, which was now sitting on the table while the men admired the view in front of them.

they were sitting on the balcony, both looking ahead of them, trying their best to ignore the thick silence.

Jungkook took a sip of his tea, letting out a satisfied hum.

"you like reading?" he turned towards Jin, who nodded lightly.

"how often do you read?"

"quite often, it makes me happy and content, i guess."

Jungkook didn't know what to say, he could see the glint in his eyes while he explained his love for books.

"you know, being a mafia isn't easy, you have to be heartless, you need to keep aside all sorts of emotions and do the needful, that's why i like books. it makes me feel things." he said looking away from the liquid in the cup, transferring his gaze towards the other boy. 

"wow-"

"it's true. why do you like reading books?"

"you see, life makes me crave certain things, and when i don't recieve them, i like reading about it."

"like what?"

"it's nothing, besides i don't deserve it anyway."

"that's for me to decide, what is it?"

"love? affection? care? yea, these i guess."

"right! you don't deserve them!" Jungkook said with a playful smirk plastered on his lips.

Jin just let out a small smile, now looking directly at Jungkook, "i know."

"hey- wait. i didn't mean it seriously. everyone deserves these things and it's not wrong if you crave them."

Jin just looked away, the small smile turning into a frown. Jungkook noticed it before touching his shoulder. what he didn't expect was for Jin to flinch that bad.

"hey! hey! it's me-"

"y-yea sorry, i-it's late, i should probably get some sleep."

"okay, 'night." Jungkook looked away, a little disappointed. he didn't know why tho. 

"good night."

he left, leaving Jungkook alone with his thoughts.

why did he look so sad?

is he okay?

i shouldn't have been so hard on him.

were some thoughts going through his mind.

he felt guilty, he wasn't sure why.

Jungkook sighed, before taking his cup to the sink.

he wasn't sure why but Jin's smile was bothering him, he knew there was something behind that smile.

"arghhhh" he groaned, grabbing onto his hair.

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for the next few days, Jungkook couldn't help but notice the changes in Jin. he tried reasoning with himself that the other was trying to get his attention.

Jin had now totally locked himself inside his room, he had no intentions of coming out, mrs kang was quite kranky, not being aware of his situation.

he would only come out to cook Jungkook his meals.

he would harm himself almost everyday, as Jungkook didn't ask for any thing physical.

he wouldn't care anyway he thought.

Jungkook had a stressful day at work. all he wanted was to go home, have his dinner and go to sleep. he remembered Jin's homemade food and his face flashing in front of him, he frowned at the thought.

he couldn't manage to get a glimpse of the other man for a few days now, even before that, Jin's behavior had changed quite a lot.

he had left work way before than he does every other day just to take a look at his husband. but you didn't hear it from him.

it was currently 10 pm, the usual time for Jin to prepare dinner.

on reaching, he opened the front door and entered his mansion.

he walked into the living room, and he did a victory dance in his mind when he saw Jin cooking. although the smile turned into a frown when he saw how Jin looked.

disheaveled hair, he was wearing an over sized sweatshirt, and from what he could understand, Jin was sucking onto his index finger.

he walked into the kitchen after setting his briefcase on the sofa. he snatched away Jin's hand and saw he had accidentally cut himself yet he was looking so calm as if it didn't bother him even a bit.

he tried looking into Jin's eyes for an explanation but the other just snatched back his hand, refusing to even look at his husband.

"you need first aid." he said leaning onto the kitchen counter.

"no, I'm fine, these cuts are normal-"

"go and sit there. right now" he pointed at the sofa before turning off the heat so the food wouldn't burn.

Jin sighed before leaving.

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sorry for a really boring chapter, it was kind of a filler for all the days i didn't post.

I'll post the next one soon ^_^

love, namjooni_e.