𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡𝐞𝐬 // 𝐝𝐜 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐨𝐧

𝐟𝐢𝐯𝐞.

I went through boxes trying to find my old necklaces and shit, my mom gave me before she passed. I put it in a box when i packed up my shit to move to cali but now I can't find it. I actually had a breakdown before this. now i'm about to have another one. meanwhile being on the phone with daij.

I have a good reason why i'm looking for it. One it's my mom necklaces and two it's her birthday today. i groaned in frustration. "you good?" don asked.

"fuck you," i said, in anger and continued to look through the boxes. dc laughed and put his phone down on the counter. He began to make him something to eat. "i'm actually getting so fucking mad," i said and slammed down on some empty boxes.

"bae just take a break. if you calm down i'm sure you'll remember where it's at,"

i put my hands on my face. slime came over and licked my hand. "go away slime," i mumbled.

"baby," don said and picked his phone up.

"what, fuck," i said.

"breathhh," he said. "go look in yo room in the closet or some shit,"

"oh fuck, your right," i got up and grabbed my phone. i went to the closet and grabbed the white box that's on top. where i keep everything valuable to me. I sat on the floor and saw a polaroids of me and dc.

i smiled a bit and grabbed the ziplock bag. the necklaces.
"found it?" he asked. I smiled.

"mhm," I took it out the bag and put it around my neck. I looked at in my body mirror. It's her ring she had as a baby. i smiled a bit. My dad always told me i looked exactly like her. that's why he "doesn't like me" and did the shit he did to me. My eyes began to water. i don't know why he's like that.

a tear fell from my face. Even before my mom died he abused me. just not sexually. I began to cry. "rai," i heard don say. "rai," he repeated after i didn't answer the first time. "baby, what's wrong?" he said, softly.

"i'm sorry," i mumbled.

sorry for this part.

I cried and sat in the corner. far away from him. "cmere dumbass," my dad said, slurring his words. he grabbed me by my wrist and threw me on the floor. i cried and shook my head.

"stop," i begged. he grabbed me by my hair and put his dick in my mouth. I gagged and threw up.

"you fucking disgusting whore," he slapped me. I cried and looked at the throw up on the floor. My dad picked me up and took me to the shed outside. He threw me in there and looked at me. "this how people like you get treated," he said and locked the door. I cried and shook. It's winter. the shed is colder then every. I grabbed the old dirty towel in the corner. a spider crawled out. i jumped a bit but put it on my legs. I laid down and slowly drifted off to a deep sleep.

i looked down at my shaky hands. tears fell from my eyes. I zoned out, into that shit again. I ran my fingers through my hair. i finally was hearing, what was going on around me. slime was running around the place, like he normally does when he thinks no one is paying attention to him. don was still on the phone, eating. don't blame him, not gon' lie, i don't how to deal with my own panic attacks. i got up off the floor and went to the bathroom. I grabbed my pills and took two. the only reason this shit is now happening because i haven't took them in a long ass time. I grabbed my phone from off the floor and looked at dc fat ass eat.

"you good?" he asked.

"shut up," i mumbled. "what are you eating?" i asked and wiped my tears.

"ramen,"

"damn you poor?"

he laughed. "yeah, you stole all my money."

lies.
he decided to spend it on me.