Delirium

chapter four

Kayden

Two years ago...

" I am really grateful you'll take this problem into consideration Mr Dikens , Kayden has always had this communication problems and since it's his last year I'm afraid he won't be getting any social skills in the future "

" don't worry Mrs Peterson,  now that you told me about it , I already know what may help him to improve his sense of communication and social skills "

I roll my eyes seeing both my mom and the senior adviser of school talking about my supposedly issues , people should start minding their own business for once and leave me the fuck alone .
I was born this way , ever since I was a kid , I would always take a corner or an empty room whenever my parents would take me to those business gathering , always telling me to go play with the kids but I hated that , in fact I had my friends and they were the only persons I could be around without feeling overwhelmed or annoyed .
I enjoyed my own company , my own mind even thought my mom still thinks I have autism .
There are a lot of things I hate in this world .
The crowd , new people , getting out of the routine,  physical touch,  being asked about myself and long conversations.
But I did love my mom , and so does Mr Dikens as I see .
This motherfucker didn't make the effort to hide his attraction toward her and of course , whatever she says , he does .
I move away from the slightly opened door of his office that allowed me to peak on them and hear their conversation .

My mom came out of his office and smiled at me .

" I want to help you honey you know that ? "
I don't reply , I just look at her as she gets closer and cups my face .
" you're already towering me , I can still remember when you could fit in my arms as a baby " she pouts and fixes my hair " you're becoming a man and your father wants you to take over his company,  and in order to do that you have to be a good businessman that has to talk to clients , associates and employees , and that will happen only if you're able to make conversations and present yourself in public , do you understand?"

Right , that's what it was about , my father .
The workaholic father who barely shows up at home and now giving me conditions through my mother so his work would still go on through me .

I know my mom has been talking to me about my attitude back to my childhood , giving stupid reasons as how I won't be able to make friends if I don't talk to people , how I won't have anyone to invite to my birthday parties , how people will be scared of me...well they are .
And it's not a problem , if everyone fears you , everyone respects you .

" yeah " I finally answer her and she nods .
" I love you kaykay " she replies and I sigh " stop calling me that mom "
" Okey Okey,  I won't , take care honey " she says before leaving  and I see Mr Dikens coming out " well , Kayden I will see you after school today Okey?"

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" we are not friends,  and we will never be friends , so keep thinking all you want , you can supervise yourself " I tell the new girl who's looking at me with shocked big doe eyes.

So that was this fucker's good idea ? Making me babysit a junior ?
I quickly leave before she could say anything.
I have better things to do then spend most of my time with a girl .
I wasn't the problem , I could have anyone if I wanted,  but I don't want them , I already have friends that I can barely stand so i don't need more people to disturb me in my life.

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The next day I find myself doing the school visit to the new girl because of Dikens who spotted me at lunch , so basically instead of  eating lunch with my friends , I have to spend this one hour and thirty minutes having lunch with the turkish girl who barely talks throughout the whole visit , and I don't either.