Delirium

Chapter twelve

Ayla

Two years ago...

"So ! You guys are dating right ?"
I roll my eyes when I hear once again Lana's accusations .
She has been going on and on about my situationship with Kayden , we never declared ourselves as a couple .
In fact we didn't even kiss , well technically it's my fault that we didn't kiss even if I really wanted to .
Even if I was longing for him to make any movement and even if my stomach was so filled with butterflies that I almost felt like throwing up .
Damn I really want to be with Kayden...

"No we are not ! I don't even know if whatever we are doing is seen as romantic" I reply taking out my math manual from my locker and closing it . Having now a full view of Lana leaning over the locker next to mine her hands in the pocket of her blazer and her eyebrow raised .

"Oh you've got to be kidding me" she glares at me , and I shrug in confusion .

" oh yes nevermind , flirting is so platonic right ? Oh I'm pretty sure the way you look at him with hearts in your eyes also is very platonic , without forgetting the fact that he attempted to kiss you !" She almost shouts the last part and I quickly cover her mouth with my hand .

"You may as well take the mic and scream it to everyone , or post it on the school's website while you're still at it !" I ground her and she chuckles , licking my palm to take away my mouth as I quickly pull away and wipe my hand on my skirt , disgusted to feel all her saliva on my palm .

"I'm pretty sure he jerks off while thinking of you" she throws in and I glare at her leaning over my shoulder .
I didn't want to go to class yet even though it was soon going to ring .

" you're disgusting Lana"

"Come on , he likes you and it's so obvious , you should do some cute activities , trigger something for both of you to admit to yourselves that you both are head over hills for each other" Lana encourages and I shrug , looking down at my shoes .
Polished shiny black Mary Janes at my feet and I smile thinking about my very unique nickname he has given me .

" Kayden is just so 'woooow' and I am so 'meeeeh'" I do grimaces along the sounds and her eyes were slightly showing anger .

"Are you kidding me ? Have you seen yourself in the mirror ? He should be the one honored that someone as amazing passionate and beautiful as you even looks at his direction" she grabs my shoulders and slightly shook me.
"You're probably one of the most amazing people I have ever met , and I'm pretty sure he thinks the same , don't ever dare underestimate yourself or downgrade yourself ! In fact you're even more interesting than him"

I think I may cry .
I have always considered myself as a very boring person , someone who doesn't dare go over the boundaries , someone who likes it cozy .
So I never thought I could possibly be if any interest to anyone .

"I don't think I'm more interesting than him , and besides I don't know that much about him , I mean I don't even know his favorite color or favorite dish"

"Does it really matter , you're still seeing each other anyways and you even ignore my texts when you're on a call with him...bitch" she argues and I laugh .

It's true , kayden and I talk a lot , either in real life or through phone calls , FaceTime and messages . Sometimes until very late at night .
But his presence just makes it better .
Sweeter .
Lively .
If I haven't met him my life would probably be all about trying to be good daughter and a good student , and not being allowed to go out , and somehow Kayden manages to make live the things I was deprived of when I was in Turkey , and he's my dearest for that .