Delirium

Chapter thirteen

Kayden

That's it .
That's the end .
Her plane took off five minutes ago and I can't seem to leave this stupid airport and stop staring at this stupid runway through this stupid huge bay window .
Mystery unsolved , Ayla had an affair with another man , managed to disappear without any trace when she found out she was pregnant , her father doesn't know about any of her new life and as she explained , she was too scared to confront me about her unfaithfulness which was the consequence of her unstable mental health after her mother's death .
It doesn't sit right , none of this does .
Why would she disappear ? Why not just break up with me ? Why not just cut me off without involving her family and her friends .
None of it seems right , or it's just that i dont want to believe it .
I run my hand through my hair , rub my face and sigh .
I wouldn't refuse a cigarette right now , but my pockets are empty . Only my car parked in the airport's parking , the same car that took her to this airport this afternoon after the early morning we had together.
Many rounds followed actually , I felt it , I felt something happening between us , I felt the same tension , the same chemistry, the same adrenaline as before, but she wasn't the same . I have no idea of what could possibly be her current lifestyle, I used to know her ... I think I did .
I used to believe she would never leave , but she did .
So maybe I didn't know her as much as I claim .
I bury my hands in the pockets of my jeans and leave the airport , looking over at the other passengers , some were taking off on other flights , some were reuniting with their relatives after landing and of course some couples meeting again , hugging and kissing and crying and whatnot .
Might as well be part of a cheesy Christmas movie while they still at it , sooooo emotional .
I hate these perfect couples .
Fake asses .
I'm I jealous ?
Pfft...yes.
But it's not a reason to vomit out all your love and put on a show in front of everyone in a damn airport .
As I walk towards my car in the airport's parking , a familiar tall and dark silhouette was leaning over my car . With his hand in his pocket and his cigarette pinched between his lips as always .
I hasten towards Blake pushing him away from the driver's seat's door .

"Missed me ?" He teases as smoke escapes his mouth .

"Haha" I reply sarcastically as I get in my car seat and see him rounding the car and getting in the passenger seat next to me .

"Why are you here ?" I ask , getting highly irritated by his presence , and his sarcasm and his comments and his attitude while he probably knows damn well that I want to be left alone .

"Because unlike you grumpy cat , I missed you" he keeps teasing and I decide to ignore him , giving him a reaction will only make him persist.
I start the car and start driving back home , it's going to be a long ride back to Atherton with this dork , life really hates me .

"No but seriously I actually came here to pick you up" he speaks again after five minutes on the road .

"What for ?"

"My dad organized a cocktail party to celebrate the new COO of the company , you should come."

"Why would I care" I say , irritated.

"The new COO is Erkan Yildiz" and he managed to arouse my curiosity. Erkan Yildiz is Ayla's father , and according to what he said the last time I visited him to ask him about his daughter when she was still missing , he wasn't even able to eat or to sleep or even to work .
He sure seemed thinner but not the unhealthy type of thinner , in fact he seemed fit , like his life now was well put together. He didn't seem tired . Definitely not someone that looks like he hasn't been sleeping and now he gets promoted to a higher position within the Ashford company ?
I never really saw things as they were before , I would always try to gaslight myself into thinking that it was only an image the way he seems fine , that he is actually was sharing the same amount of pain and sorrow with me .
It felt good to believe that someone else knew what it felt like to lose the delightful Ayla . But now that I'm taking a step back from the situation, Erkan Yildiz couldn't care less of his daughter .
He carried on his life without grief and pain , and without this feeling of complete emptiness that I have been feeling for a year now .
Her father didn't give a single fuck about his daughter or his family , in fact he achieved more the past year than he had ever done the years before with his daughter and wife .
I look over at Blake noticing the confident smile on his lips . I know he knows what I'm thinking about , in fact he was one step ahead of me for once .