engravings. ▸ chae hyungwon

borderline.

gone a little far this time with something. has it been long enough? will i be so in love?

it's only been a couple of days since the other night, hyungwon would sit in his room as he doodled the woman into his sketchbook. his grip tightening on his pencil as he thought back at kihyun and sol. the way he sat so close to her, his arm occasionally laying across the back of her chair. he would do it on purpose. he knew because kihyun would look straight at hyungwon when he did.

the male sighed and shuts his eyes as he threw his pencil down onto his desk. after that night, hyungwon stayed inside his room, refusing to go out or go to class. he felt himself loosing the battle with his inner demons. it sounded ridiculous but he knew the moment he saw kihyun, everything would end there.

changkyun was worried, he would stand by his door and knock every once in a while to see if the other was still alive. "hyung? i'm going out to dinner with the rest of the guys since shownu hyung came back from his trip. do you wanna come?" he asked behind the door. hyungwon leaned back into his chair and stayed quiet.

"please, i think it would be good for you to come with.." he kept going on but never got a respond, eventually he gave up and walked away. the footsteps retreating until silence fell over the entire apartment. there, hyungwon stayed alone, in his own head again.

꧂

"he still hasn't left his room? does he eat?" hoseok asked, eyes filled with worried for his friend. he, himself went over and tried to get the other out his room but failed. it was the first time that his tactics didn't work. it surprised him and the others. "maybe when i go to bed? i don't know." changkyun answered, mind wandering off to the menu.

hoseok sighed and looked at the menu himself. "this is all kihyun's fault." minhyuk stated. the others groaned and looked at him, "what? it's my fault that the grown ass man is throwing a temper tantrum?" kihyun scoffed and rolled his eyes, he had no regret on what he did, he was proud.

"you knew wonie has a crush on her." minhyuk spoke and shrugged, he was worried about his friend as well. even though he and wonie had a few fights and falling outs, they were close. all of the men were close to him, except kihyun. "i didn't know. all he would do is play hot and cold with the girl. how could anyone know?" minhyuk rolled his eyes and closed his menu, sitting it down onto the table.

"it was quite fucking obvious kihyun, since when does hyungwon ever put interest in a girl? i mean, come on. for someone so smart, you sure are fucking stupid." he mumbled, "yah! say that again?" the two men began arguing. "i guess nothing has changed." shownu spoke as he looked at the other two, his head shaking.

"he puts interest in every girl when he wants to fuck her. how am i suppose to know the difference with sol?" shownu's ears perked up when he heard the name. his eyes moving toward hoseok before speaking up, "sol came back? this is about her?" he asked, all the boys quieted down and looked over at him. "you know sol, hyung?" kihyun asked.

shownu chuckled lightly, "yeah, she's wonie's first love. he's been waiting for her to return back to seoul for what? six years. i thought had given up but i see nothing has changed." he spoke, all of their eyes widened, a bit taken back at the information they had just learned.

"they met in preschool? they became best friends, those two went everywhere together. never left each others side. you could tell he was in love with her, maybe from the start of preschool." shownu continued, hoseok sighed and ran his hand through his hair, he knew that if the other found out that they were revealing his past, he would kill them. literally.